reasons

That day came

My world was turning around .. I couldn't believe it .. I was finally leaving .. not now not today .. but one day .. I've been distant from everyone ..

To continue what happened in my last update ..

We started talking again .. but only as friends nothing more .. but something less ..
We called each other a lot for a long time too ..
After I told him that I couldn't do it anymore .. That I couldn't hide my feelings for him .. like that the whole time we kept talking .. the text .. the calls .. everything made me love him .. love him even more than I had before .. The worst part was that he didn't have no more feelings towards me and as much as he told me that he still care for me only made matters worse ..

It didn't matter to him though .. After I told him that he never wanted to talk on the phone anymore .. And when I asked him to hang out he would have so many excuses ..

All I wanted was to know that I had a real friend .. but I guess I didn't .. I guess I was a joke to him the whole time .. it didn't surprise me though .. I knew from the beginning all guys were the same .. so far I never had a guy prove me wrong .. even when they told me they were different ..
My worst fear is falling in love again .. My worst decision is letting my self Hurt again know that I would end up hurting no matter what ..