love is turning

get your god damm stuff

Me and my boyfriend were just home again.

Ive been with my boyfriend for a half year.

we live together and were kinda happy.

Im bisexual but ive been telling myself that i love men the most.

I walked to the kitchen and my Phone started to ring.

It was madison, madison is my best friend from england.

She is a special girl not in that way that i mean she cant handle her life alone. But it was true, she needed to speak to me everyday.

i picked up my phone " hello beauty", " ceecee!" I heard she was happy that she could hear my voice.

Shes always in for a skype but i knew it wasnt possible for a while. I worked as a model and youtuber. Tomorrow i will leave for 3 days to paris. I dont talk about my work with madison, it makes her sad.

"you wanne skype tomorrow" she asked happy as a child.

Again i needed to make her sad, it feels horrible but there was no other way.

She knew i was a model but i said it was not a big job.

But i knew better, im a model for a lot of things.

Yeah i posed for magazines too,but bradley the brother of madi is helping me to hide everything.

Everything is going well so far.

"Euhm i have a family reunion" i sigh.

I saw she became sad but she believed in me lie, she always does.

" there is no time for me than?" "maybe 10 minutes" i smiled.

"And what about two days" "i need to work all day"

i.told her that i worked in a restaurant.

She sighs " 3 days..." "the festival".

i saw she became sad "no time for me".

" im sorry madi".

"Are you lying to me?" She sighs.

Shit! " no baby. You know i would never lie to you".

I hurts that i knew that i was lying to her all the time.

"Are you sure".

I heard me boyfriend screaming "celine youre late, the plane!".

I looked at the clock, i was really late.

Without saying anything i pushed her out and ran out the door.