Because of You

Drew

I kissed her. What has gotten into me? I've never just kissed a woman for the hell of it. This chick is in my head. She's under my skin. Lauren is the first female who makes me feel protective. When I heard that guy had touched her my brain fogged, my body got hot, and I was seeing red. I legit wanted to snap his neck.
She has a past. I can feel it without even asking. I see it even if she is hiding it. I wish I could take it all, the pain, the memories. I know how rough it can be. I may have misjudged her when we first met. Now I just want to get in her head and fix it. I want to be close to her no matter what I have to do. Now to show her I'm not like any other guy. The question is, how can I show her I'm not one of them losers?
I can feel her before she even gets close. "Drew?"  She's nervous and seems scared. I don't want her to feel that way around me. "Come sit so we can enjoy food then you can go home and rest." The food should be here soon. Maybe if I eat slow I'll have more time with her.
"So you come here a lot?" Lauren looks anywhere but at me.
"Are you talking to me or someone else?" She twists her head in my direction but her eyes are still not looking directly at me. "Lauren stop avoiding my face and just relax please." I place my hand on her upper thigh and she relaxes just enough that I have her full attention.
"Now, yes I come here a lot but mainly by myself. The foods really good and my buddy owns the place." The food arrives and we chow down. I catch her glancing at me every once in awhile but only for a split second before looking away.
"Desert or you ready to head home? They have a killer lava cake." Please say yes I'm not ready to let you go.
"That sounds nice." She smiles a little but again, she isn't looking at me. Something isn't right. She has been avoiding looking at me since she came back from the bathroom. Before then we weren't having any problems with her looking at me. What happened between me kissing her and her going to the bathroom?
That's it! The kiss. I kissed her then she got all weird. Did she not want me to kiss her? I thought she did but I guess I fucked that up. I never misjudge a situation like that. Especially with women. They always want me to kiss them. I rarely do though. But I wanted my lips on Lauren's. I thought she wanted the same.
I decide to confront her. No more bullshit. Straight up ask her what the problem is.
"What's going on with you?" She takes a minute to acknowledge what I ask then shrugs one of her shoulders at me. I sigh, annoyed that she won't just tell me what the problem is. "Look Lauren, is there something that I did wrong? You have been purposely avoiding looking at me since I kissed you. If you don't feel that way, cool. But don't act all weirded out about it. Just be straight with me. If you like me just say so and I'll back off. No hurt feelings."
That gets her attention because she whips her head in my direction and looks me straight in the eyes. Her eyes are wide like she is shocked I even said that to her. Well I did. I am tired of the games she has been pulling almost the entire time we have been here. She gets a little crease between her brows like she is confused. "What are you talking about?" I roll my eyes at her because she seriously can't be acting like she has no idea that she hasn't once looked at me since we sat down. "Oh come on Lauren! You have been intentionally avoiding looking at me since I-" she interrupts me mid sentence, " Drew, I have been avoiding looking at you because I was embarrassed, not because you did something wrong."
Embarrassed? What the hell is she embarrassed about? I look at her like she is crazy and say, "what do you have to be embarrassed about? You haven't done anything." She stares at me for a minute then says "I got embarrassed because you kissed me, and it was great, but instead of kissing you back I just walked away like nothing even happened." She sighs, "I do like you Drew. I just met you and barely know you but it's like I can't control myself around you. My body mainly." She blushes a little at that. " I walked away because if I wouldn't have you would have thought I was easy or something because I wouldn't have been able to control myself."
She looks embarrassed to be admitting that her body responded to my kiss. That is a normal reaction sometimes if you have enough chemistry with the person. I don't understand why that would embarrass her. It was a kiss, a small one. If she gets embarrassed about a kiss then what else will make her blush like she is right now.
"Baby there is absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about." I reach for her and pull her close. Looking into her eyes I slowly inch closer to her and wait for her to meet me halfway. Nothing about how I feel is normal to me but damn I need this girl in my life.
The instant our lips meet there's fireworks. My mother always told me the right girl would come along. She would have me turning my head faster than a lightening bolt. I fucking found her. Now, to keep her.
"Damn girl. Like I said not a fucking thing to be embarrassed about." I have to pull myself together before I pick her up like a caveman. I'll have her over my shoulder and out of this place in point five if we do that again.
"How about that desert now?" The giggle that comes from her lips has my dick twitching. I want to get my dick wet even if it takes her forever to trust me.
We order the lava cake for two and then we head to her house. My momma taught me to always be a gentleman so that's what I do. I open her door and by surprise she locks her fingers with mine.
"So I guess this is goodnight. I had a really good time with you."