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(𝐬𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐬𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 😍😍😍)
I sat in the bathroom on the floor silently crying once again. I was tired of this shit.
I hate being stuck in this house with a crazy nigga.
"DIAMOND COME OUT THE BATHROOM" I heard him yell.
I don't even kno what I did he just started acting crazy.
All he does is beat on me then says sorry and tell me he 'loves me'.
Every times he gets mad his eyes change colors and his veins pops out.
I now got a bruise on my face and chest. Soon i'm going to have a black eye.
It got quiet for a minute and I pressed my back against the wall.
I cried harder. This is not how I wanted my life to be. I wanted to go to college and become a nurse.
I missed my mom and dad so much. Still can't believe they're gone.
And I still haven't heard anything from liyah. I hope she's okay.
I looked around and my eyes landed on the razor blade.
Should I?
No I shouldn't.
My leg bounced up and down as I looked at it more tears came down.
I place my head in my heads and blew out a breath.
Maybe I should. I'm getting tired of being abused. Ion think I can last much longer.
Birds chirped making me look at the window and bit down on my lip.
Jump down and fall to my death?
I shook my head.
Or maybe I should shoot myself in the head?
I glanced at the medicine cabinet.
Take all of them and OD?
I can't take this pain that this boy is giving me.
I miss them times when I was happy.
It's all MY fault. I should've said yes when he first asked me out.
My thigh hurt, sometimes my lower stomach stings, my heads hurts whenever roddy yells at me, and my chest it's numb.
After that fight we had the other day my nose bled for 40 minutes, my side hurted for the rest of the day. Tossed and turned all night. Roddy just pulled me closer to him.
Nun of this would've happened if I'd just stop being shy.
I'm scared. I don't feel safe. What if he kills me in my sleep for no reason.
What is wrong with him. Mental illness?
No I can't kill myself. Liyah might be alive.
"I just want things to gon back to normal" I whispered.
"IF I HAVE TO COME IN THERE MY DAMN SELF IMMA MURK YO ASS" he threatened.
Fuck it.
I grabbed the razor blade and slide it on my wrist.
I watched my blood oozed out.
feeling lightheaded I threw the blade and closed my eyes.
"Goodbye world"
"DIAMOND" Roddy banged on the door making me snap out of my thoughts.
The blade was still on the counter.
The door made a noise and Roddy barged in.
I was slowly starting to slide back.
I stopped and came to realize I backed into the wall.
Roddy bent down and picked me up bridal style then walked out of the bathroom.
I already knew. To the basement I go.
He opened the door and walked down the stairs.
"When is you gon learn diamond?" He mumbled.
Roddy place me in the chair and tied me up.
See what I mean.
"If I have to fucking beat yo ass just for you to accept the fact that you stuck with me forever then I will" I whimpered as he yelled in my face.
"I'm so sick of yo ass, DIE." I stomped my foot.
"That's exactly why yo ass in here"
He punched me then walked out. Once I heard the lock click I let it all out.
