𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐃𝐎 𝐔𝐒 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✔︎ 𝗃𝖺𝗌𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗈𝖽𝖽

𝑠𝑖𝑥

~

[ 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕓𝕖𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖 ]

Head neatly rested onto his broad chest; listening intently to the steady beats of his heart enlisted a calm in me that nothing could otherwise do. I'd used to think that it did the same for him as it did me, but that night changed my outlook on things. 

The quickened pace of his heart was the first signal I had gotten that there was something wrong, but then soon thereafter came the tremors. His hair clung to his forehead soaked by his own perspiration. He was drowning in none other than a terrifying nightmare, and before I could appeal to his aid startled he immediately broke away from the embrace. In an instance, he stood before me heavily panting, and running his now shaking fingers through his hair.

" Jay what's going on, are you okay?" I inquired after him

"Yeah I... listen I just need an minute." He replied walking away

Something was wrong, and I knew it. That was the most startled I'd ever seen him. Utilizing the darkness in my favor I stalked away retracing his steps out the bedroom door towards the living room. My eyes took a few moment to adjust to the lighting, and slowly but surely Jason's tense figure appeared on the sofa. Jaws and hands clenched intensely: nails digging into the skin of  his palm drawing trickling drops of blood. Seething with anger or frustration - I couldn't tell, not having the courage to step forward however I kept to my hiding spot.

"You're hiding skills are terrible, anyone tell you that before?" letting out a heavy sigh at my cover being blown.

I walked out of the shadows, sat in a kneeling position before him taking his hands, and inspecting the damage he had done. It was one of his most terrible habits, never allowing the skin of his palm to heal before digging into his palms therefore creating gruesome irritated scars/wounds.

"You're making it really hard to do something I know is the right thing to do ." he started

" Well if it's that hard to do, maybe it isn't the right thing." I stated looking up at him straight in the eye.

"It's the right thing to do Scarlet." He asserted not breaking eye contact.

"Talk to me; What is it?" The question clearly riled him up, making him stand up and walk a few feet away towards the nearby window staring out. Whatever it is he had to say he couldn't say it to my face.

"I should leave." Silence stuck for a seconds, followed by a scoff from my end.

"What do you mean 'leave'?" confusion marked my face not that he could see it with his facing the other way and all. Clumsily getting up from the ground I made my way towards him.

"I mean I should walk out that door right now, and never return." He clarified making a gesture towards the door.

" As long as you're near me you're not safe. You hear me? I've got demons lurking in the corners of every path I take." Hearing that my hand reached to grab a hold of his arm, but in response he tugged his arm away from my reach.

"No, enough of that

I can't think straight when you do that!" he states belligerently

"Enough of what, You are being completely irrational rig.."

"IRRATIONAL, DON'T GET ME FUCKING STARTED ON IRRATIONAL FOR FUCK SAKE!" He cuts me off. This side of Jason was the side that scared me the most; making life altering decisions on a whim. Me being near him clearly didn't help either so backed up slowly.

"How is this right? , when you know for a fact that I love you." I pleaded

"You won't have time for love if you're dead" he says finally facing my way

"You can't do this, you can't just leave the second things get tough jay" I yell out at him, as my eyes threaten to spill a river of tears. I never was one for confrontation.

"The sound of bullets keep echoing in my head; followed by the heavy thud of your limp body falling to the floor.

That's all I hear when it gets quite for too long

I can't let myself be the death of you" , and with that his knuckle goes flying on the wall inches away from my head, too cornered and startled to make a move I stood there letting the tears spill freely down my face.

On a softer note he added: ", but every time I try walking away – I never follow through"

"I'm a selfish bastard ."  He says gently cupping my face with his palms.

"I need you to promise me something, promise me this one thing and ill stay"

"anything.." I whispered

"Promise me that no matter what happens you choose you. Promise me that if I'm in the face of danger you will let me handle it and walk the other way. I need you to choose you." He asked so earnestly scanning my face for the answer, an answer that would put his mind at ease.

An answer that I could never in a million years have agreed to if I hadn't known how much he needed to hear it.

Swallowing intently I told a lie straight through my teeth in hopes he wouldn't catch it.

"I promise"

In an instant his face gleamed before me showered by the moonlight, taut muscles now completely relaxed. Slowly leaning in he buried his face in the crook of my neck, and then proceeded to place a splendid kiss on my forehead a gesture that quite made me melt in his arms.

author's notice:
hey there :) this is kind of a disclaimer i guess. this is my first ever full dialogue therefore it might have not have been the best. i'm sure there's better out there. if you have tips for next time it would be much appreciated <333