Flawless

Chapter 4

It's been a week since I've been home or at the club. I miss my baby so much, I can't go another day without seeing her. I made sure to talk to her every night over the phone. It hurt me to see her cry out and beg for me to come home. I just couldn't go back and let her see her mom all bruised up. I feel much better though and I'm packing now to head back.

After getting all my stuff together, I walked out and headed downstairs to return my key. Once I got to the front desk, I handed the lady my key then walked out. I made it out to my car when someone swerved into the parking spot next to me. Out came hazel eyes and the guy I slapped. "Ughh this bitch" the one I slapped mumbled. I sent a wink his way and got inside my car. I waited for them to walk out into the street. Then I pressed down on the gas pedal and sped pass them, purposely coming close to hitting the guy I slapped .

I watched in my rear view mirror as he yelled after me but I only stuck my middle finger out the window and continued on. I wanted to stop by the ice cream shop and get Myra and Elise their favorite ice cream before I came home. I told Elise I would be home in three days so I could surprise them.

When I made it home I rushed inside. I yelled out for them as I walked through the door. The sound of little feet running put a huge smile on my face. I bent down with open arms as the chubby little face that I love so much came into view. "Mommy!!!" She yelled. Once I got ahold of her I kissed all over her face as she laughed. " Mommy no leaving me again" she said while hugging me. " I promise baby...mommy is here to stay" I assured her.

Elise slowly made her way in. I put Myra down and gave Elise a hug. She checked me out, like she was looking for something. She continued to eye me slowly then said we'll talk about it later. I signed looking down at the ground, Elise truly had a mother's intuition. Over the couple of years of knowing each other, she quickly gained the ability to read me like an open book.

Wanting to change the subject, I held up the ice cream. "Look what I got" I cheered. Myra mouth fell open, recognizing the bag she screamed out ice cream. We all sat at the table enjoying our ice cream and each other's company. Myra was truly all the entertainment we needed. Me and Elise sat there laughing at her while she made a mess with the ice cream.

After cleaning up the house, I spent the rest of the day chasing Myra around. Playing dress up and hide n seek. Moments like this I cherished. My baby wasn't going to be a baby forever so I had to enjoy these moment. Towards night time, I gave Myra a bath and watched as she played with the bubbles in the water. After bath time,  we all got comfortable in my bed and watched Frozen.

Half way into the movie Myra fell asleep on my chest. I kissed her forehead and rub through her hair. " Are you ready to talk" Elise asked. Looking at her made me burst into tears. Elise became my new motherly figure and I hated to disappoint her. I knew she didn't like what I did and always worried about what could happen to me.

"I got into an altercation, that's why I couldn't come home" I said with tears still pouring down.

"Don't beat around the bush with me. Tell me what happened" she replied back.

I broke down, telling her everything that happened. She wouldn't allow me to skip over any details. She pulled me into her chest and started crying along with me. We sat in silence for a moment as she continued to hold me. "I'm so sorry you had to go through that but you are strong and god has a plan for you. " she whispered into my ear.

I closed my eyes letting her words sink in.
"I'm going to be honest with you. I'm becoming weaker and weaker. Not knowing how much time I have left is killing me. Not because I'm scared to die but because I'm scared to leave you alone." She said. I thought I was done crying but the thought of me being left alone brought more tears to my eyes.

"Don't worry, I have someone who I want you to meet. They'll be here to protect you when I'm gone" Elise said.

I looked up at her confused on who could possibly take her place. I guess she noticed the confused expression on my look and told me that her son would be coming to stay. Elise has never told me about having any children but I guess I shouldn't be surprised because she held all the qualities of a good mother.

"Why didn't you ever mention him before" I asked.

"My son is very private with the life he lives. He has always been there to check up on me though. I just chose not to bring you around. You already had so much going on and I didn't want to bring the dangers in my son's life in yours. But now I can't risk you being alone, I know my son will protect  you by any means. He knows how much you mean to me. I care about you as if you were my own child" she replied back.

After that I let my thoughts consume me. Wondering what would her son be like and if he held the same characteristics as Elise. Would me and Myra truly be ok once Elise was gone? I guess I have to wait and see what the future holds for me. I then let sleep takeover as I cuddled up between Myra and Elise.

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It was now the next morning and I had already took care of my hygiene routine. Elise wanted to take Myra out on a walk, giving me a chance to straighten up the house a little and think to myself. I spoke out loud, praying to God to let Elise live long enough to see me grow and make something of myself. I was too busy praying out loud, I didn't notice that Elise and Myra had came back along with company. Pouring my heart out as I prayed, I asked the Lord to help me to come to terms with the rape. I knew the Lord only gave his strongest soldiers the toughest battles. He wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle but at the moment I was feeling defeated. A tear fell from my eye when I turned around and saw Elise and Myra standing there. Elise held tears in her eyes I guess she heard just about everything I said in my prayer. I took my eyes off of Elise cause I noticed those same hazel eyes looking into my soul.

I rushed off into my room not saying a word so I could get myself together. Embarrassed wasn't even the word for it. I didn't want everyone knowing I was raped. The nights spent at the hotel I kept having nightmares about it. I wanted to come across as this strong girl. I thought punishing the people who hurt me would make me feel better but it didn't. Being a stripper was already degrading but now I found myself hitting rock bottom again.

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard my room door being opened. Myra came running in and jumped on my lap. She rubbed her hands down my face. "Mommy no sad face." She said to me while giving me kisses. " Mommy feels better now that your here" I said back to her returning the kisses. "Look mommy...me made new friend. He silly like me" she said running towards hazel eyes. He picked her up and started to tickle her.

For a moment there I thought I seen hazel eyes smile but I could be tripping. I made my way towards them so I could introduce myself. " Hi I'm Arnell" I said to him. He nodded his then said "Quinnel but most know me as Q". Up close he was even more intimidating but still sexy. Maybe overtime he'll loosen up and lose the serious face.

Do you think Q and Arnell will get along. Look out for the next chapter to find out.