Words of Truth

This Is How I Will Go

Broken bottles on the floor,

Who am I to want much more?

Who am I to think of laughter,

Husband, kids and happy ever after.

A fading smile is all there is left,

Now I think it is time for my rest.

No more crying, no more lying,

Not one single thing worth trying.

For you, the love I feel,

To me it seems unreal.

Yet I still love you with all my heart,

Though we are worlds apart.

The tears I cry are not for me,

They do not make me feel that free.

Free from pain and suffering,

All they bring are remembering.

I remember the past, I want to forget,

Because that past is full of regrets.

You’ll find me in the lonely hearts,

Under ‘I am after a brand new start’.

But there is no room left for me to stay in,

Only outside, there I stand and it’s raining.

Is it my own tears falling from that cloud?

They must the fears I dare not say out loud.

Here at the end I want you to know I love you,

My family, my friends and kind faces too.

As to right now, I really want to fly,

Maybe that way it won’t hurt when I die.