district high school ♞ everlark

Chapter 13

Peeta POV

"I told you! She kissed me!" I point to myself.

"We believe you, but seriously, you broke her heart. She hasn't been in school for weeks because of you," Clove shakes her head, "Do you have any idea of what she could be doing right now? She's probably wanting to kill herself!"

That hasn't passed my mind. Yeah, she hasn't been in school for weeks, but I thought she went somewhere else to get away from me.

"Do you have any other things that you wanna share with us that would probably break her heart all over again?" Annie asks.

I sigh and hesitate for a minute. "I'm dating Delly."

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Katniss POV

It's been a month, and Prim, Mom and Plutarch are gonna be home in a couple days. I have to return to school today, January 5th.

I was supposed to spend Christmas Day at Peeta's house with him, his dad and brothers, but I couldn't possibly do that. I just watched some Christmas movies.

Finnick stopped by at Christmas. I actually let him into the house because he's like a brother to me. He saw my cuts and was furious. But he helped me clean them up. Although I just worsened it by cutting again.

Since I didn't eat for the longest time, I usually upchucked anything I was forced to eat. But, eventually, I was able to eat some crackers and popsicles. I've gotten back to my normal life, except for cutting and not attending school.

I wash my hair and body with honeysuckle scented body wash, shampoo and conditioner. It's been my first shower since our breakup. I hop out and dry off my body and hair. I tie my hair into a sloppy high ponytail and brush my teeth.

Then I go into my bedroom and grab a random black band shirt, black jeans, and some black converse. I only apply mascara to my depressed face and grab my bag to go to school.

I get stares at basically everyone as I walk down the halls to my locker. My locker is blocked by a guy kissing a girl, although I can't see who they are.

"Excuse me," I politely but quietly tap the guy's shoulder. "Can I get to my locker, please?"

The guy turns around, making him and the girl visible. My eyes widen and my bottom lip trembles as I see that it's Peeta and Delly.

No, don't cry. Hold those fucking tears in. Don't you dare.

Delly has a satisfied smirk on her face while Peeta looks truly shocked at my appearance as they move out of the way.

While I get my books out, I let a single tear drop down my cheek and to the ground.

Looking up to Peeta and Delly, who are still standing there, I hold up my cut wrists and whisper, "Is this what you wanted?"

Delly has a hint of guilt in her eyes as Peeta actually looks sad.

I silently walk off to music class and sit in a desk far away from Peeta's.

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At lunchtime, I don't sit with the group. I sit at a small table by the window meant for one or two people, and start taking little bites of my food while scrolling through my phone.

"Katniss?"

I turn my head around to find Glimmer standing behind me. I jump up and into her arms. She gives me a huge hug and pulls away.

"I'm so sorry this happened to you," she whispers. "Can you try to sit with us?" She points to the table.

Peeta and Delly are sitting there.

"Why are they there?" I ask.

"They wanted to sit there. We couldn't say no. Trust me, the group hates them two. Can you just sit next to me?"

"But she took my seat," I look to the floor.

"We'll pull up a chair," she gives me a genuine smile.

"Okay, fine," I smile a little bit.

"Hey I got you to smile!" She laughs. I start to laugh, too. She giggles and drags me over to the table with my things.

"Guys, guess what? I got Katniss to laugh!" Glimmer smiles. Each person from the table, except for Peeta and Delly, gives me a hug and smile.

"Hey guys," I smile a little bit and pull up a chair between Glimmer and Finnick.

Peeta just stares at me for the longest time. I glare at him and Delly, then go back to talking to Glimmer.

The bell rings for free period, and I walk off by myself to the meadow adjacent to the school after saying bye to he group.

I sit down in the tall grass on a rock and look up to the clear sky.

"Daddy," I start to cry, "I need you right now. You probably wouldn't be proud of me since I cut my wrists and starved myself, but I want to just talk to you. Please, say something. I need you, Daddy. Please," I sob into my lap. "I want to see you, Daddy."

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Oh my gosh, I cried while writing that last part. Please bear with me here, as I promise it will be Everlark in the end.