My Cool Little Miss

Baby Mikee

When Michael left, I decided to clean the house while Mikee's busy playing by himself.  I checked him every now and then and after a few moments he looked at me and yawn.

"Mama, sleepy" I picked him up and laid him in his crib and hummed a lullaby.

I finished cleaning after almost two hours and Mikeee is still asleep so I decided to make some snacks. Mikee love my homemade vanilla cookies and I'll gonna make some. I gathered up the ingredients and prepare it. I put the shaped cookies on the oven and waited for more or less ten minutes.

While waiting, I remembered that I haven't packed Mikee's clothes. I have to take him to my unit as it was more convenient. As I brought the bag on the living room, I  checked the cookies and they were done. I packed it to a jar and also Mikee's bottles and milk. After making sure that nothing's left behind, I saw Mikee standing on his crib and looking at me. I gave him a cookie and he immediately nibble it.

"Wanna come to Mama's house?" He immediately nod and asked for a piggy back ride. "Hold on tight baby"

We where on our way to my unit when I received a call from dad.

"What's up dad? I'm driving right now"

"Is that so? Then I'll cut to the chase . Bring my grandson here"

"You know I can't, he's afraid of mom"

"Yeah I know. But your mom's not here so are your elder sisters. So can you bring him? Can you?"

"I'll let you talk to him" I connected it to the speaker.

"Hey Mike? Do you wanna play with popsy? Popsy really really miss Mikee. Do you miss popsy too? You'll definitely enjoy, I promise. Say yes baby"

"Popsy? Play?" He looked at me and I smiled and nodded reassuringly. "Okay popsy"

"You heard your grandson, we'll be there soon"

We arrived 15 min later and I was parking my car and I saw my dad running to us and immediately opened the backseat to get Mikee. They immediately run off somewhere not helping me unload the  bags of groceries.

"Miss, you had come visit us. Are you planning to celebrate New Year here? They won't be here until 2nd week of the month because they decided to travel this Christmas and New Year." It was Yaya Lilia, which I call Mimi, she's been here for 3 decades and I consider her as my mom. She's been a great help to me when my mom and sisters terrorize me. She's really a great help especially when Mikee came. She helped me a lot and I learned a lot from her.

"I'll talk with dad about it. Also I'll ask Michael if he can come by then. He's on a business trip."

"The house will be more livelier if you and your siblings and your dad can enjoy it frely and peacefully" she touched my cheek and gave me a motherly smile.

"I know Mimi but I think that won't be happening anymore" I smiled sadly.

"Could you ask someone to take Mikee's bag in my room and prepare some snacks, thank you"

After talking with Mimi, I walked to the garden and saw dad, Tobio and Mike's are playing soccer. Well, more like they were teaching Mike's. I just watched on the sidelines.

Hearing all the laughs and the happy atmosphere engulfing us made me wish that this moment won't go away. A hope that Mike's is not I'll and he won't suffer more and grow like a normal kid with all the love he needed. Hoping that this stress-free look from dad won't fade away, and the regret in his eyes that can make you cry. Wishing that the jealousy from Tobio's not there and the sadness that's emanating from him.

Wishes and hopes that I want to fulfill. But I realized that if any of it didn't happen, Mike's won't be here with us giving us the strength to go on. He won't be laughing with them kicking the ball and giving us somehow the content that we need against this unfair world we live in.

I was brought back from my reverie when my dad groaned playfully. "Wait, popsy needs a break, I'll sit with your mama for a while."

Dad sat beside me on the gazebo and we both watched Tobio and Mikee. We sat with silence when dad suddenly spoke up.

"He would have been a great dad" dad said not averting his gaze from them. I nod even if couldn't see. "I'm proud of what you two had become. I may not be with you all the time but I always pray to God what's best for you two. It must be hard to lose both your mom and dad but I am happy and still am, seeing that you're not like me. You have been a great mom to Mike's, considering how young you are, the responsibilities that you have shouldered are tough and it makes me proud to say that you are my daughter."

We looked at each other and smiled. Dad haven't been like this since I can remember. But seeing him now, looking at his eyes made me smile even wider.

"You were saved by that darling little lady, so is Michael and that's true with Tonio and me. He's a blessing in disguise. Mike has given each of us a reason to continue life and enjoy every bits of it. Mike's our Little angel and I'll treasure him more than my life and I'll do anything for him."

"Me too."

"You know you should after all you are his mama"

"Yeah, no one's going to take him away from me. But seriously speaking dad, I think and I know that I've been a terrible mom to him. I only came when I remember him. I don't look after him that much. Anyone could say I am not a good mom"

A year fell from my eyes but daddy wiped it away and shook his head.

"As I've said, you've been a great mom. If you are not, then he won't be acting like that with you. He treasures and adores you more than you can imagine. And anyone who says you aren't a good mom can't see properly"

He hugged me and that made me burst into teras. It made me cry harder feeling my dad's hug. It's been years since dad had given me this kind of hug. Come to think of it, it's the first time. I was bawling my eyes out when I heard small footsteps.

"Popsy made mama cry" Mike's looking at us and he had this angry look.

"No baby. Popsy loves your mama. She's just a baby and popsy just gave her a hug" dad was trying to explain but it sounded dumb. What a lame explanation it is.

"It's okay baby. Papa won't let popsy near mama again so mama won't cry." Tobio said seeing that Mikee's still angry.

"Mama's okay baby. I just missed popsy that's why mama cried when popsy gave me a hug" Mikee's anger turned into worry and hugged me.

"Mama won't be sad because Mikee hugged her" we all smiled and hugged Mikee together.

I looked at dad and he had this knowing smile.

"I told you so" he whispered.