Cracks Beneath the Surface

Mistakes

Lets start fresh with a realization of how messed up life can be
People say love is easy, it's breezy.
I say it's beautiful, but deadly and dreadful
I'm an ugly creature that stepped off track. Falling to her own destruction
Tumbling down darkness with no light
Shirt filled with salt water tears and snot
Nasty right?
Misunderstood all her life
She fights to be heard, but never really is
Messed up with her everything
He's pissed off at her over something he can't wrap his head around
Feeling down, and betrayed by the creature he loves
She loves him deeply, her heart has burst
Out comes pain, inflicted by self, inflicted by others, inflicted by trust, by memories
All inflicted,
poison thorn struck deeply within her soul
She bleeds heavily
Letting go of what was inside
Her past and future intertwined
Misunderstood her actions were not good but intentions were
Her past came into present and snatched the little thread of stable from her
Shes falling
Her past was calling, it look nice so she follows it and crashed into despair
Why should he care, when his heart shattered into pieces
Her heart shredded to slithers of life
Only beating because peace doesn't come independently
She didn't mean to come off slutty deceiving.
Perhaps too friendly
She is sorry
Her heart cries out the words
Her body struggles to feel anything but p
Her body struggles to feel anything but a
Her body struggles to feel anything but I
Her body struggles to feel anything but n
And shame, for her dirty deed with innocent intentions.