Forgive & Forget

Chapter 4

Chapter Four:

Lucy’s POV:

I woke up early, 4 o’clock, the next morning. I had decided. I mean no one will really miss me even if I miss them. I was just a replacement for Lisanna anyway.

I had a quick shower, got dressed and sat at my desk, ready to write. First I wrote a note to my landlady. I told her about my family and asked if she could maybe keep my apartment for me. I will definitely pay her the full price once I get back. Next I wrote a letter for Natsu, my eyes tearing up as I wrote. I told him how I felt as I don’t think he will ever come in here to look for me, so he won’t read this ever. Even if he does read it he won’t care and he will have forgotten by the time I get back. So I am fine. I also write out letters to Levy, Erza, Gray, Wendy and the Master. I tell all of my closest friends that I am going away to train somewhere secret that they will never find, so they shouldn’t look, and that I will be back.

I leave all the letters on my desk spread apart, so that they are noticeable, and I begin to pack my things. Now I can leave knowing that they won’t worry. Like they would anyway, they have their precious Lisanna there now. She will probably take my place in team Natsu too. Oh well, I will be stronger when I return and they will definitely want me back. I hope.

With that I left to get the first train to Yocomata.

Natsu’s POV:

It has been over a week since me and Lisanna started dating. I have to admit things are a little shaky I mean Lisanna has changed and I don’t know if it’s a good change or a bad one yet but all in good time, I guess. I realised that Lucy seems to have been avoiding me recently. I wonder why... Oh well, I would talk to her know but she hasn’t come into the guild yet today. She didn’t come in yesterday either. Hmmm...

“Hey Erza”

“Yes Natsu?”

“Have you seen Lucy recently, I wanted to talk to her?”

“No Natsu, I think she’s sick again, maybe you should visit her. You two haven’t spoken properly in a while.”

“Yeah. You’re right Erza. I’ll do that.”

With that I left the guild and set off for Lucy’s apartment. When I got there I entered the same way I always do, through her window and looked around for a second. She wasn’t there. I sniffed in the air to catch her sweet scent that I had missed so much. But it was faint; she hadn’t been in here for over a day. I looked around in her room and saw some letters on her desk. I looked at them. One was addressed to me, one addressed to Levy, one to Erza, one to Gray, one to Wendy and one to Gramps. Something serious must have happened for there to be a message to Gramps. I ripped open the envelope of my one and read it.

When I finished I didn’t know what to do. I just sat there thinking, taking in the last of Lucy’s scent that I would smell for a long time. I want to find her but something tells me in my heart that I won’t.

So Mira was right. Lucy does love me, or rather she did but now I have just crushed her heart into a million pieces by dating Lisanna. Maybe she will get over me and find someone new wherever she is. I decide to lay in her bed and sleep here like I used to try to do when she wasn’t in. I wish she was here. I miss her.