keeping the distance

chapter VIII

The feel of him in his arms was intoxicating, so warm beneath his fingers that were starting to Rome his body, that alone made his insides tighten into knots, at this moment he could not estiguesh between the need or  want nor did he too, the need to breathe or the ' need' to to feel more of him and he wanted more like a man gaining his freedom.

He wanting this for years to feel him so close that he can fill his nostrils with his shampoo smell or soupy scent and feel every breath he take in and breath out. He hands were on boss thighs since boss was on top of him. Pulling him closer and tighter against him.

The more this continued it is difficult to think. He's yearning was consuming him but he needed to stop, because he wants boss to be sober when they make love for the first time rather than a drunken incident.

He has waited for years what's a couple's of days right.
He wants boss to acknowledge him  and know how much he adores him too especially now that he has a clue that might be smitten  too.

The thought of pulling away was killing him but he needed too,  so did and pushed boss to off him and they both Lay on the bed, There breathes so fast. he's hand tingled wanting to pull boss right back and with overpowering temptation that he will not surrender too. So he need to go before he's will crumbles.  He looked at boss only to  find him passed out . He got up to leave, his blood burning like he had lava for blood his mind Replaying every second of that kiss over and over that made it difficult to leave.

But he has to or he might do something he will regret he stayed. Boss looked so cute sleeping with his bruised lips paunting.

I left his dome room took out my phone on the way down stairs to uber my self a ride to my room because for a cab it was late
But by luck there was a uber that 5 Min away.

I arrive in my room I could not sleep my body was arching for realise and I was to tired for a shower and everytime I close my eyes I feel boss lips on mine and the urges came right back like an uncontrollable wild fire taking over my mind.

On Monday we are sitting in our usual spot but my wife has not shown up yet this was upsetting for me, I wonder where he is. I call and he didn't pick up!!. I've been trying since we got here. Normally we eat breakfast as a gang and help each other with home work or just catch up. We normally arrive on hour early before our morning class that start at 09:00.
"Hey Mek where is boss "  I look at tee since he asked but before I can answer kings speak" Yaa he is never this late because he's normally copying my home work "  " I don't know , did any of you try to call him" bouhn shakes his head " but you are the husband should you not know where your wife is " I laugh " ya tasteful joke , you are his friends so same applies" I was happy that my group always called us that and seem to be implying it for real. "fine I will call him now" tee took out his phone and called boss. Boss picked up " hey are you okay, where are you ? " Was firing so many questions that I couldn't really make up what boss was saying so I had to wait for tee to tell us.

Why did he not pick up my calls, that stupid wife of mine now I have to wait for tee , I wanted to ask tee to put his phone on loud speaker.

************************************I'm so sorry for the short update , I've been trying to write but I'm experiencing writers block and I am demotivate to write too, I think I'm more scared of what you guys think of my work now and funny enough in the beginning I was writing for fun ,I don't know where it changed. But I'm sure I will be fine hopefully soon 😊 . PS thanks for trying to cheer me up it meant a lot .