Who's that Girl?

1. Looking in the mirror

Disclaimer:

This is a fanfiction story using Madonna as the Main Character. This is not a true account of things that have happened. Some things are based on comments she made in the past, gossip, and what fans think. The important thing is to my knowledge, none of this has happened.

The story was written to explore our role in society and acceptance that things change because we get older or the world changes

1. Looking in the mirror

I threw down the newspaper. A singer from X-factor told the press that my last album was weird and a mess. This singer said that I was once the Queen of Pop, and could not accept that my career was over. She even said that I was desperate and scary. I did not act my age, and still thought I could dress and act like I was 25!

The younger generation wanted to be stars overnight and thought that programs like X-factor and American idol would do this. Still how many could remember last year's winner? She has a nerve for being so harsh on me. What will she ever achieve? Most likely she would be forgotten in a few months. Achieving success means a lot of work and dedication. It means knowing the right people at the right time. This took me years to achieve. I was as ambitious as a young woman than I am now. However, I had to work my ass off for it!

I threw away the newspaper and sat down at my make-up table. I will be 62 soon and it is showing in so many ways! When I look in the mirror, it looks like I am a dying flower. It horrifies me now when I see myself. There seemed to be a new wrinkle every day. I just stared at myself. Creams used to help and then botox used to do wonders. Face-lifts also helped, but it all has been a fight against time. While the aging process was slow before, it has been a daily struggle. I now needed a miracle every time I wanted to go in public.

My son David came into me. He was a lively boy and always made me smile. In a way, he reminded me a lot about myself. He had a lot of ambition and wanted to be a soccer player. He was now a teen and his whole life was before him. The path he wanted to be on was long and hard. I am also sure he would go far. I would be there to cheer him on and support him. We sat on a small table in my room. The maid had already put a pot of tea there. This was a habit I picked up when I lived in England.

David asked me if being ambitious and determined a bad thing. This made me smile. I should be the last person to admit that ambition was wrong. I told him when I was a young woman, I told a journalist that my ambition was to rule the world. I wanted everyone to know my name. I told David that without determination and ambition, no one would know who Madonna was. I smiled as I told him not to worry about ambition and determination. Life was exciting. He could achieve what he wanted if he worked hard and tried to be the best.

I sure did feel old giving advice like that.

I wrote a note on what I needed to do that day. I have been doing since the start of my career. It helps me use the day to its full potential I would start by reading my mail, then doing business. I would exercise and spend some time with my children. I would party on occasions, although that is so hard during COVID times. There are so few hours of the day, and I like to be in control of all aspects.

My manager came and told me that he just had a meeting with the record company. My latest album sold less than my previous album. However, the small tour did well, grossing 51 million dollars. My manager reminded me that this is the 4th album that would be considered as a flop. He looked at me as if it was the end of the world.

I looked down at the statistics. I knew the Madam X album was very different from what I released before. It was experimental music that explored music from all over the world. It had a very Latin American sound. I knew the songs would not be played on the radio. This stopped bothering me long ago, I knew that many radio stations did not play my songs because they thought I was a relic from the past, The fact is Madam X was something very few people have tried. It was an experiment. It was fun.