I'm Not Scared

Chapter 5

Kelsey’s POV

I had no clue about what he had done. I kept looking straight into Matt’s eyes, none of us saying anything at all for what seemed like an eternity, it was a strange feeling, I was scared but I didn’t know exactly why. It could be the fact that I had a complete stranger in my house, with some really questionable looks. I don’t know a lot of people that, from one day to another, get a cut in their lip. Besides he looked extremely tired, like he hasn’t sleep in days, and he also seemed to have more alcohol in his system than his body could handle. Although I could feel another kind of emotion that I couldn’t really describe, all I could say was that I wanted to get to know that guy. Sounds stupid, doesn’t it? Wanting to know a guy that almost killed me and that apparently has enemies that always make sure to leave a mark on his body. But that was exactly what I wanted to know, I wanted to discover everything behind that badass look. Maybe I was going completely inside, but I wanted to know everything about him… oh, it’s very clear that I’m losing my mind.

 -Did you notice the time? – I blinked a couple of times when Matt’s question snapped me out of my thoughts, and then I noticed that he was looking at the clock I had hanging on my wall.

-I don’t know how we’re going to wake up tomorrow… well, how we’re gonna wake up in a couple of hours.-

-I don’t want to think about it.-

-You had a long night, didn’t you?-

-Nothing I can’t handle.-

-Is it always like this?-

-No, sometimes is worse.-

-Really?-

-I’m just playing Kels, we all have bad nights, tonight was one of them, but nothing I should regret happened.-

-Yeah, yes, I think I overreacted with my reaction.-

And with that we we’re both in silence again, but it wasn’t awkward, actually I felt really good, better than I should to be honest, after all Matt was still a complete stranger. I knew I shouldn’t feel so safe with someone like that… I just didn’t understand what was happening.

When I finally came to my senses, I noticed I was still kneeling down in front of him, so my first reaction was to get up quickly. I didn’t know how being around Matt could turn me into the dumbest girl in the world, it was as if everything I wanted to say turned into a bird nest, so tangled up that I couldn’t find the beginning or the end to form meaningful sentences, besides when I was with him I was clumsy and slow. I was acting like I’d never been in front of a boy before. That made me remember my best friend, Alicia always knew what to do in this kind of situations, she was sure of herself, and she was also really beautiful, so I tried to remember every single advice she gave me during my clumsy moments, moments like this one… nothing, my mind was blank.

I frowned and realized I had been standing in the same place without doing anything for a while. When I looked down I found Matt staring at me, I think he kept his eyes on me the whole time with a small smile on his face, wow… he really is attractive, wait… what did I just think?

-Why are you looking at me like that?-A very stupid question. Really Kelsey? Anyone would be giving me a weird look if I stayed in the same place staring off to the distance.

-I like your eyes and you look cute when you’re nervous.-

-Nervous? I’m not, I just have a lot of things to think about, besides I don’t know you, you have that look, you smile like that, you don’t do absolutely anything and you make me nervous… oh… what I meant to say is… we should sleep.- I heard him laugh and I couldn’t help doing the same, it seemed like he could read my mind and that made me feel exposed, because when I looked at him I couldn’t find anything, even if his eyes revealed his sadness, and the million dollar question was… why?

-I can leave if this makes you uncomfortable, I don’t have to stay.-

-No! -Maybe I sounded a little desperate.- It’s late and you look tired, very tired actually, there’s not much time left before we have to wake up, sleep… we both should do it.-

-Well, in that case, you don’t mind if I lay down?-

-My couch, it’s your couch.-

-Do you trust me?- That question took me by surprise, and I really didn’t know what his intention was, if he actually had any relevant intention that is. I didn’t want him to misunderstand my answer, but why was he asking me that? I should be worried about it, right? Stop, Kelsey. Stop overthinking stuff so much.

-Should I?-

-No, you certainly shouldn’t trust me.-

-Then why are you asking me that question?- I’m not going to deny that seeing his face so serious worried me even more, but if he was warning me, the best idea was to get away from him, after all I didn’t know anything about him… but I want to know, that was the reason why I kept contradicting myself so much.

-I need an answer that doesn’t have another question on it, please.-

-Will I regret it?-

-I said a real answer, do you or do you not trust me?-

-Goodnight, Matt.-

-I wasn’t looking for that kind of answer either.-

-Do you trust me?-

-Goodnight, Kelsey.-

I said goodbye with a nod of my head before I walked towards my room. If I already had my doubts about that guy, now I had a whole bunch of questions. Once inside, I started looking for a blanket for Matt, I still had a mess anywhere I looked, I was never an organized girl and now I was facing the consequences. “Finally” was what I internally shouted when I found what I was looking for, I reached out to take the blanket and walked out of the room with a victorious smile on my face.

-It might be cold tonight so… - I stopped talking when I saw him already sleeping, I bit my lower lip and moved closer very carefully not to wake him up. I put the blanket on the back of the couch to take off his boots, I heard him mumbling something and smiled noticing how there wasn’t any sign of him waking up. I took the blanket again and covered him up, staying there for a moment without moving at all. Seeing him so in peace relaxed me as well, I didn’t understand what trouble he had or why his eyes seemed so sad to me, but mostly I didn’t know why I had the necessity to get to know him -Who are you Matty?

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I'm back!

Damn, I'm sorry guys... days pass so quickly and I never expected the fact that university took all of my time (and I had nothing on mind to continue the story, well I have a lot of ideas but I dont know how to put it in...), crazy five months but I promise I'm gonna published the next chapter soon!

Thank you to all for take a little of your time to read this!

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