Love Me, Love Me

Four. "I need to better my word choice."

"Hey, Nicole."

"Oh, hi Jason." Nicole did not look away from her locker. "What do you want?"

"Do you want to go out tonight? I've got a part to go to and a pretty sexy dress with your name on it."

"Absolutely not. What is it that you assholes don't understand? I don't want to fuck," She slammed her locker shut and gave him a snobby look. "Especially not with you. You're a jerk, and the reason your dick is so microscopic is because the rest of it is shoved into your personality. Bye now."

His eyes actually started to water as she strutted away, with her long, soft blonde hair swaying from one shoulder to the other. Marcus laughed a little. Jason wasn't exactly one to treat girls right, or anyone for that matter.

She kept walking and she brushed past Marcus' shoulder, instantly giving him chills up his left arm. He turned around-not meaning this exactly-but watched her hips as she walked to lunch.

Don't... Don't do that. You barely even know her.
But damn...

*****

While sitting with Rikki, Joseph and Ben, I felt a light tap on my shoulder. The first thing I see is my friends reactions to the girl with Crystal Blue Eyes standing behind me with a sweet smile.

I turned and for the first time I felt myself smile at the sight of her. "Hey."

"Hey... Can I sit?" She asked sweetly, yet hesitantly.

I bit my tongue, "Uh-"

"Of course you can, Nicole! Just sit yourself right next to him, he'd love that." Ben smirked, while I gave him a look, a mixture of nervousness and 'Shut the fuck up'.

She sat her small statue in the seat to my right and looked directly at me. Her Crystal Blue Eyes had small bits of Grey surrounding her pupil. I'm not going to say she's beautiful or anything but my Lord, her eyes are mesmerizing.

"Did you need to talk to me?"

"Yeah, well, I kinda just wanted an excuse to sit with you..." She leaned in a little closer, speaking in a low, mousy whisper that made my heart race.

"We're gonna go, uh, study." Rikki nudged the others and left us two alone.

Why would they think its okay to leave me alone with her?! They know I don't want this!

"Listen, I really just want to know why you... Like.. Cut off any conversation we have.. Do you not want to talk to me? I really just want to know if you don't like me for some reason..." Nicole broke eye contact and fiddled with her thumbs.

I...

I sighed lightly, "It's not that I don't like you, I just don't want..." I froze.

I can't say I don't want anything to do with her... That could hurt her... I don't want to hurt her..

"...my friends to think something of us-O-Or, no, I just.. I'm nervous." I looked down and rubbed the back of my head. "I've never been a good friend when it comes to girls, and I don't want to become close and end up hurting you. My friend Ben does everything he can to get us to talk and frankly, I don't understand why... I mean, why do you even want to talk to me?"

I exaggerated. God, fuck. I lied. I exaggerated. She's gonna think I'm a bad person. She won't want to talk to me-
Why do I even care... I said I didn't want anything to do with her...

"I, oh... I just, you look lonely?" She spoke as if it were more of a question than an answer. She looked a little bummed out. Fuck. "I thought you needed a friend. I'll be going, I'm sorry." Nicole said, without looking at me and walking away.