Joined

Dying Love.

"You think he's gone fix up his act?"

"Maybe,"

"I'm sorry you had to see that guys,"

"You're good," Mark replies.

I didn't see YangYang so I'm guessing that he didn't see this. He is going to flip if he finds out.

"Where's YangYang?"

"I dunno. I thought he went upstairs with food for you,"

"Well he never came,"

"Oh?" Taeyong spoke up.

So where the hell is YangYang? He'd never just take a stroll with even texting me. And he'd never forgotten about me either. Maybe Jaemin got to him. I just know that we gotta find him no matter what.

"We gotta find him. He has an assignment due in 2 days and tomorrow was supposed to be the day he finished it. I know there is something wrong. He would never just leave me hanging nor never tell me what's going on,"

"You think someone took him?"

"Don't you dare bring that up!"

"Well what else could there be? Either one of us called him in for something or he's been taken,"

"Let's assume it was one of us for now,"

I sauntered upstairs and went to find YangYang's stash of weed. I got a couple of joints and grabbed the hidden bottle of Cap'n Morgan. As soon as I touched the door knob I heard it. The faint sound of gargling. I dropped everything and looked for the source of the sound. It wasn't coming from the bathroom nor the closet. I opened up his balcony doors. It got louder so I looked over the edge. I was so horrified by what I saw I stumbled back and forgot how to react for a moment. I staggered out of his room and down the steps trying to keep my tears in but as soon as I walked down the steps everyone looked at me.

"What happened? Where's YangYang?"

"He's...outside,"

"Dani calm down. What ever it is we can fix it,"

"YOU CAN'T FIX A DYING PERSON JENO!" I shot back at him.

"What?"

After that word I ran with the others. I shoved my way passed everyone and saw him. The gurgling sound was from him trying to breath. Something snapped, I don't what is was but it came out and took over me. And I said something I shouldn't have.

"You, all of you! You let Jaemin get so bad and now you can't even protect YangYang? What kinda of family is this? I'm practically the only one here that knows everything and what everyone is going through. But no that's not the reason for anything is it? It's probably another trail for me to suffer from but why did it have to be my Xiao Yang and not Jaehyun or WINWIN? I love them too matter a fact I loved all of you but now that this happens I can't take anymore of this pain. Taeyong you can just count me out for now. I hate all of you! You fucking incapable cunts,"

I walk away irate and miserable. I rushed upstairs and found his room through my tears. I grabbed everything that could ease the pain even for a day. I smoked half of my mind away and my body was numb from the severe in take of alcohol. I sat there on his bed reading out text messages from him. I couldn't bear to have him leave me so suddenly.

This went on for a while. I would walk around drunk and see things and hear things that weren't there. Jaemin didn't speak to me at all and I was glad that I fucked him up. I blamed everyone for his death so I was being very harsh to everyone even Taeyong himself. No dared to say anything, they should've saw it coming. I would stress eat then I would throw it all up with some alcohol. I knew better than to let my life get this bad ever again but I'm only human.

"Falling for a stranger," I cry out "Good gracious,"

I still remembered how we would always sing out parts of song together. And his scent never left me. In my dreams I could see him as happy as ever and then it would stop. I would cry for weeks at a time and they only time it would stop was when I went to sleep. I would even cry about how now we can't even smoke together anymore. I was heartbroken and angered all at the same time. I couldn't stop my feelings even if I tried. I became a walking zombie but I would still do some assignments. Only on my good days though. I barely cried anymore but it still hurt like hell.