Joined

Running Away.

5 hours later -

We finally walked out the tiny street shop with fresh tea at hand. We get into his car and drive back home. After the loud laughter had calmed down we burst through the door trying not to spill our drinks. I set my drink down and laid on the couch. I got laid on by the one and only...Huang Xuxi.

"Oh my god you're so fucking heavy,"

"And you're so fucking cute,"

I stare at him in disbelief but I let it slide. I tried pushing his body off me but he wouldn't get off. I huffed in defeat and closed my eyes.

"Can you get off me?"

"No,"

"I'll give you a kiss..."

"Nah I'll pass,"

"Okay so then get off of me,"

"Nope,"

"Why?"

"Because you're using YangYang,"

"You know what? Fuck you," I push my hardest and he rolls down and onto the floor.

I grab my tea and head upstairs. The one thing I noticed was that my door was open and my lights were on. Why?

I open the door even wider to see what was going on. There Renjun was holding the bag of pills in his hands.

"Renjun? Put the bag down, please,"

He looked at me with tears fall out of his eyes. I was heartbroken by the way I saw the emotions swirling in his eyes, like he was hurt and pained.

"Why? So no one finds out about your addiction? So I can lose another member to drugs?"

"Renjun...I'm sorry,"

"Don't be," He snapped before leaving me into another pit of endless emotions.

"Renjun! Wait!" I try to grab onto his jacket but he was faster than me.

"I.Hate.You! Don't test me Dani I will shot you dead in the face,"

"Junnie please!"

He pulls a gun out on me and I froze. I didn't know what to do. I was the most skilled member but I was being overruled by a Dreamie.

"Don't ever call me that you addicted bitch!" He walks away and around the corner to tend to his own business.

I sat there and fell to the ground. It felt like my heart was torn into pieces again just a few days after recovering from YangYang.

"Junnie..." I repeated softly.

I was a mix of emotions and I couldn't do anything about it. My first thought was to run from the problem. I didn't feel welcomed in the house anymore since a couple of the members were against the use of drugs. And I acted on my thoughts and just ran. I heard the member but I ran and ran and ran. I didn't know where I was but I just kept running. I wiped the tears away as I ran.

In the end I just ended up on my favorite bridge which was still on NCT territory. I weeped in pain. The point of another break down was on the edge of exploding. I kept myself together for YangYang's sake then I remembered Lucas's words.

"Because you're using YangYang,"

He was right. I tasing basically playing with his feelings and I knew better. Even though it wasn't long, I still loved him no matter what. But in the end I still hurt the one's I love the most. I've always been like that but now life was not in my favor. I can only blame myself for being so...me. I trudged up to the edge of the bridge to see the water glisten under the moon light. I was probably sitting there for a good 3 hours but I didn't care. I had no place to be nor go so I sat there and sat there until my eyes got heavy and I picked a nice spot under a weeping willow tree.

I allowed myself to be exposed and slept under the tree that night.

~

I wake up with the sun beaming in my eyes once again and I turned my head so I didn't have to look directly into the sun as I sat up. I was still in the same spot untouched. I guess I was lucky enough to survive in the breeze with just my hoodie and leggings. The thing is as soon as my mind came into play the past events from last night crashed on me and I felt like I couldn't breathe for moment. I was overthinking of course but I didn't let it become a huge thing but I kept nagging in the back of my head.

"Hwang Danielle...What the hell were you thinking?" I mumbled to myself and walked around enjoying the sight before I walked amongst the crowd of innocent people.

I saw that my favorite shop was open but I decide that they can trace me that way. I had a bad feeling that they wanted to kill me but I shrugged it off without a second thought.

"Miss?" A stray male questioned.

"Yes? Can I help you?"

"Um...can take me in? Just for a little while, im so cold and hungry I don't know what to do anymore,"

"I can't trust you that easily but I can go get some clothes and something to eat,"

"You would?!"

"What is your name?"

"Wang Ermao,"

"What a cute name. Come on Mao," I rested my arm behind his back to feel for any weapons but there was none and lead him to the nearest street shop.

"Pick what you want,"

He picks out some chips and Samgyeopsal. I reached into my pocket and to my luck I found just enough to cover his meal. We sat down and I fidgeted with my hand under the table contemplating my next move.

"Can I tell you something Miss?"

"Yeah what's up?" I look up at him.

"They got something wrong. iKON didn't sit back and watch but more of NCT held them back,"

"What?"

"Your brother...they didn't have a choice but to sit there and watch it all burn down. That's why they hate NCT so much. That's why they want closure for you,"

"But they...they were terminated,"

"I wasn't though,"

My eyes opened wide expecting him to drag me away but he just continued speaking to me.

"I don't even blame you for taking down iKON since you never knew that they hid from you but I think you'd rather hear the truth from me,"

"Why should I trust you? You're my rival,"

"Because only I know what happened,"

"Can I leave without you stopping me?"

"One more thing. Your mom and dad were't the reason why your like this but more of how they were never around and you're used to it by now,"

"See you around Mao. Keep a low profile,"

"I will,"