Endings Beginnings

Gone with the wind

/Edited version/

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Present time

"This is love!" I remember me saying that while jumping on my bed.

Was it his smile? His captivating charm? Or is it the curiosity of wanting to know the meaning behind the expressions he makes?

The intense, overwhelming desire to be with him...the intoxicating feeling when you're with him. Were they the sign that says 'danger'?

A fine line between love and craving. When do you know if it's love and when it's too much?

My heart tugged with my questions. It's like adding insult to injury. 

Wanting was not enough. Before it was. 

I wanted, no, I needed to hold him as if he was mine. To feel him as if he was mine to lose.

First year of high school

"I'll do the peeling." Presenta ko habang nagluluto kami. We have an extra subject here at school and pwede kang pumili kung anong gusto mo, but of course may extra bayad. I chose cooking class.

I'm busy peeling the potato when a familiar scent lingered on my nose. Kumunot ang nuo ko when I smelt a strong smell of nicotice hanging on him. "Anong niluluto niyo?"

He peeked his head over my shoulder making me feel more of his body heat. His body heat encased me and I felt my body roared in fire.

Shit! I looked at my wrist at napapikit. Slowly, the blood started to ooze from the cut that the peeler made.

Hanggang ngayon ay 'di pa rin talaga ako nasasanay kapag sobrang lapit niya kaya naman dumulas ang kamay ko na may hawak na peeler papunta sa pulsuhan ko mula sa pagbabalat ng patatas.

Before he can notice it, agad akong humarap sa kanya at mabilis na nilihis ang kamay ko upang maitago ang sugat. "S-shepherd's pie." Ngumit ako kay Adam, never minding the sting, at kinuha ang kutsara upang ipatikim sa kanya yung sauce. Using the hand without the cut.

Akala ko kukunin niya ang kutsara mula sa akin but he leaned his head on an eye level and tasted the sauce from me. We probably look like a couple from this angle.

Wait, what?

Rose bloomed on my checks with my thinking.

A couple? Really? Grabehan na talaga.

I mentally shrugged my head from that silly thoughts.

"Sarap. Turuan mo 'kong magluto next time, ah."

Ngumiti ako sa kanya pero agad din 'yun napawi at bumulong, "Ha-ha. You smell like smoke, what the hell?" Tinaliman ko ang tingin ko.

Nabanggit niya sa akin dati na gusto niyang itry magsmoke. Can you believe this guy? And worst is, he even explained the benefits of smoking. Stupid boy. 'Di ko rin naman siya pinatapos dahil nagwalk-out ako dahil sa inis. He said he was just joking...but, who am I to dictate him anyway?

Tinaas niya ang dalawa niyang kamay while giving me a sight of his dimples. Napairap ako sa ginawa niya. I fight the smile on my lips while looking at him emphasizing his dimple. Tumagilid pa siya para makita ko ito ng mabuti. I bit my lips and shrugged my head to him.

I suddenly remembered that time.

"You stare at me more." I diverted my attention from the speech I'm making to him. Nasa garden pavilion kami ngayon at busy akong gumagawa ng speech para sa opening ng event dito sa school namin. Kay Adam lang naman ako nahihiya eh, pagdating sa maraming tao, kaya ko na.