he doesn't even know i'm alive | r5 | rewritten version

3: lunchtime

NATALIES POV
lena was taking the morning off so i went to school the next day alone. as i took my books out of my locker, rocky sidled over to me. i had a crush on him and im pretty sure he know. but hey...the feeling was mutual.
"hey natalie" rocky and i were both pretty confident you could say.
"hey rock. you good?" i smiled.
"yeah! you?" he replied.
"im pretty good too!"

"awesome! anyway, do you wanna hang out with me and my siblings and ratliff at lunch? bring lena too! she's awesome!"
"sure! of course! thanks for the invite!"
"no problem. i'll see you at lunch, i gotta head to class!"
"rocky...im in your class"

the tall boy blushed slightly. "well...wanna walk together?" he asked.
"sure!"

LENA POV
i got to school at lunch and walked to the cafeteria with natalie. rocky, rydel, ross, ryland and ratliff were all there. we said hi and sat down with them. rocky and natalie were flirting like nobodies buisness. ross and i teased them till riker walked over. i wolf whistled and everyone burst out laughing. riker looked confused but shrugged it off.

we decided to play the bean boozle challenge and everyone was losing besides riker and i. we both reached for the last jelly bean and as we did our hands touched. we exchanged awkward glances then took one each. we chewed, our eyes locked.

suddenly riker pulled a face and spat his out while i enjoyed the taste of tutti fruity.
"the mvp has won" i grinned as everyone cheered for me.
"good game, lena" riker emphasised my name and put his hand out. i shook it
"you too riker" i replied in the same tone.
"you guys are weird" ross put a jelly bean in his mouth and immediately coughed and spluttered. we all laughed again. i realised i'd been holding rikers hand for ages and quickly pulled away.

natalie and rocky were really talking. riker seemed a bit off when he saw them. so he cleared his throat.
"hey uh natalie" he said. she looked at him.
"would you...wanna go on a date sometime?"

i couldn't believe it.
he liked natalie. he fucking liked her.
also he KNOWS her and rocky like each other. what's his deal!?

"hey im gonna go to the bathroom!" i said to rydel before rushing out of the cafeteria. i sat on the bathroom counter crying.

was i not good enough or something?
not pretty enough? why didnt he like me!?

"len im so sorry" natalie had gone after me.
"its okay, it isn't your fault" i replied.
"well i denied him...he and rocky had an argument"
"that was such a dick move! he knows rocky likes you" i sniffled.
"i know right" she sighed.

next period, riker and rockey were in our class. natalie said beside rocky. riker noticed and looked hurt but sat in front of me. i knew i had to get over this stupid crush. it wasn't going to happen.

before the lesson ended, rocky and i were throwing pencils at each other. i slapped one away and it rolled to rikers chair. i sighed and went to pick it up. as i grabbed it, another hand did too. it was rikers. natalie made kissing noises and rocky laughed with her.

"thank you" i snatched my pencil.
"oh um...are you okay?" he stammered.
"yes?" i furrowed my eye brows.
"you kinda rushed off at lunch"
"i said i was going to the bathroom"
"you looked sad" he said quietly.
"im on my period" i looked him in the eye.
"right" he picked up his backpack and left the classroom. i was being a dick but i was hurt.