Forgotten And Broken // The Outsiders

Chapter 5

I had Pony come over to help me get ready for me and Johnny's date. Pony was the only one who didn't know it was me yet so I was planning on telling him so he wouldn't be upset.

"You are literally freaking out over nothing"
He said to me as I ran around looking for something nice to wear.

"Pone I have a really big reason why this has to go perfectly planned"
I said. He rolled his eyes at me.

"Why"
He exasperated. I sat down next to him.

"This is why"
I pulled of my glasses. The second he saw me he wrapped me in a hug.

"You cant tell Johnny ok everyone knows but Johnny that's why I had you come over so I could tell you"
I said. He smiled.

"Why can't we tell Johnny?"
He asked.

"I don't ever want to hurt him ever again"
I answered. He smiled.

"Johnny will always love you no matter what you are"
He said.

"That's exactly what Steve said"
I said to him. A smile appeared on his face.

"Maybe Steve knows reality too"
He said. With that he went downstairs to Darry's truck he used to get here and drove off. I threw on the light blue skinny jeans Pony told me to wear. I put on a white tank top and a nice plaid shirt over slightly unbuttoned so you could see the tank top. I pulled my hair back in a ponytail with my brown hair still falling a little past my butt. I didn't bother with to much makeup just because I would have my glasses on. I threw on my red converse and leather jacket and found my way downstairs. Johnny always had something weird up his sleeve for a first date. The first date he took me on was a picnic at the park. Even if it was cheesy it was super cute and romantic and made me want to love him more then I already did. I saw him sitting on the staircase at the Curtis house as I walked up. I parked my car at my dads place like I always did.

"You ready?"
Johnny asked standing up. I nodded. I saw everyone appear at the screen door or window giving me a thumbs up.

"56!"
Steve yelled through the screen door. I gave him a dirty look as Johnny looked confused.

"What the hell is it with that boy and the number 56"
He said. I laughed.

"Who knows its Steve"
I said. He smiled at me. The smile that was different from his real smile. The smile he would give me and the gang when he truly loved us at that moment. I couldn't take it. I shouldn't of agreed to go on this date with him I would hurt him even more if I broke this off after. He saw a tear slide down my cheek. He wiped it away with his thumb.

"What's wrong?"
He asked.

"Nothing uhh I'm good it's just the wind"
I said.

"Your right the wind is pretty bad"
He said.

"You know what it's almost dark come with me I have a better idea of where to go"
He said with a wild smile plastered on his face. I laughed as he grabbed my hand. I jumped at the way his hand still fit perfectly with mine. I saw him keep turning and smiling at me. I missed him more than words could explain. We came up to the lot. The same old car seat was still there and Johnny sat down. He patted the seat for me to sit down. It was completely dark now. I could see the stars for miles.

"I used to come here after everyday thinking the stars had something to tell me show me and it never did so it stopped me from killing myself I would come here everyday hoping I could find something in my mind to help me unravel my future if I didn't keep coming back here excited today might be the day I could find out what I would do with my life I would probably be dead right now"
He said. I stared at him he soon noticed and looked at me.

"When did you think about killing yourself?"
I asked. He looked at me his brown eyes shining.

"Around 17-18"
I trembled. I hugged him I don't know what came over me but I had to. I felt myself start crying I immediately brushed my tears away.

"You don't think about it anymore do you?"
I asked. He shook his head.

"Nahh it's not worth it anymore"
He said. I smiled.

"Good"
I said. He smiled at me and he saw the care in my voice.

"Why are you still wearing those glasses?"
He asked. I touched to rim of the glasses.

"I just feel like it"
I said.

"What color eyes do you have?"
He asked. I hid my face. He went for my glasses. After fighting with them he got them off and I jumped up hiding my face.

"Hey can I just see a glimpse of your face?"
He asked. I shook my head.

"Ok"
He said. I felt myself shudder. I ran to the Curtis house I couldn't help myself. I ran in bawling. I immediately found my way next to Dally. Even though he was the toughest one if them all it made him make me feel even more protected around him.

"Oh no what happened?"
He asked hugging me even though I was already clung to him.

"J-Johnny wanted to see my eyes I freaked and ran I just couldn't I want him to know but then something told me no"
I said. He ran his fingers through my hair.

"We are going to find a way to fix this okay?"
He said. I nodded and he somehow pulled me closer I didn't think that was possible by how much I was already clung to him. The boys came and surrounded me.

"We were happy when we found out why don't you think Johnny won't be happy"
Two said. I kept my hands covering my eyes trying to stop the tears.

"It's not about him being happy it's about me making a stupid move and hurting him again"
I said. I heard the screen door slam. I lifted my head up in hopes to see Soda and Rebecca.

"Why won't I be happy?"
Johnny's voice asked. The boys moved revealing me. I saw my sunglasses barely hanging off the tips of his fingers. He sort of stood there with a weird look of confidence and happiness and he couldn't decided which one to put in this situation. Finally he made up he mind and ran over to me. My face had runny make up all over it and strands of hair had fallen into my face. He brushed my hair back as he kneeled in front of me.

"Elizabeth?"
He asked. I nodded and cried more. I had to go I just had too. I stood up and ran out I could hear the boys.

"Woah Johnny give her a second when she is ready to take all of this she will let us know ok"
I couldn't hear Johnny's response but I kept running until I got to my car.