ASH LEE POINT OF VIEW
"Ash Lee, gising na daw po kayo sabi ng Mom niyo." Bumuntong-hininga ako nang marinig ko yun ang boses ni Manang, as always. This is so boring.
"I'm already awake, don't worry."
Walang gana akong bumangon at inayos ang kama ko. Tahimik na lumabas si Manang kaya dumiretso na ako sa bathroom para maligo.
My life is so boring, you know why? My family doesn't even feel like a real family. Ganito na kinamulatan kong environment, kaya tuwing umaga mainit ulo ko.
There are rules kasi pagdating sa'kin. First is, ayaw ko ng maingay tuwing umaga. Pag ginigising ako dapat isang beses lang because I shout at them. Ayaw ko rin ng maingay tuwing lalabas ng kwarto ko.
And also, hygiene is very important, ayaw na ayaw kong may ka-share sa lahat ng bagay. Sa damit, sa sapatos at sa iba pa. Kung ano yung akin ay akin lang.
Second is, hindi ako mahilig magsuot ng mga damit ng ibang tao o kung sino mang magpapahiram sa'kin ay binabalik at tinatanggihan ko. I'm a really clean person, ayaw ko ng madumi.
"Argh, another day. Why do I have to keep doing this in my entire life?"
I'm looking at the mirror habang inaayos ko buhok ko.
I'm looking at the mirror habang inaayos ko buhok ko.Wala eh, kailangan bumangon and we need to be beautiful habang nagse-serve as the new Student Council President.
Type B uniform ang sinuot ko ngayon dahil ito yung naka-assign ngayon. We should learn how to follow the rules and regulations.
Wala naman mawawala kung susunod ka sa mga rules. Do you know that rules are the key to a peaceful life? Syempre hindi, that's my quote in life eh.
I'm Ash Lee Scott by the way. 20 years old, 3rd year college student under-
taking business administration. I'm the new President of Wetherton university, hanggang 4th year na to dahil ayun ang duration ng terms namin.
What a big responsibility, right? Pero no choice, pinasok ko tong position na to kaya wala na akong magagawa.
I'm a great leader naman, I am able to enact great leadership for the sake of the everyone and the school.
Matalino ako at maganda, may ibubuga talaga ako kahit saang
larangan. Kaya kong gumawa ng 500 words essay within an hour; I can even do public speaking in front of a thousand people, no sweat.
Ever since kindergarten I have excelled in academics.
'Are my parents pressuring me academically?' Yes, they really want me to become an academic achiever and excel at everything.
Gusto nila ako yung laging nangu-
nguna, nasanay na lang ako sa ganung gawain nila kasi gusto lang naman nila na maging successful rin ako tulad nila.
Mom is a practicing doctor, while Dad is a distinguished businessman. Mata-
talino sila at kilalang tao, marami silang pera na kinikita everyday kaya dahil doon ay busy sila palagi.
They're always busy serving others, while us, ni Ate Alexa? Nah. They never care for us, puro lang sila business trip this, busy schedule that. Minsan nga umaabot ng 3 months na wala sila.
Even my graduation nung highschool wala sila. Hindi naman malungkot, disappointed lang kasi nagspeech pa ako pero wala sila doon. Si Manang lang talaga yung nandoon and my Ate.
Napatigil ako sa pag-aayos ng sarili ko nang mapatingin ako sa picture frame na nakasabit sa wall. A picture of me and my family, nung time na late yung birthday celebration ko dahil sa busy schedules nila.
'I've always tried to understand them, but there's still a part of me that needs to feel love from my parents.'
'They've always felt so far away that I couldn't reach out to them even once.'
Kaya ganito attitude ko, hinahayaan ko na lang kung sinu-sino yung aalis sa buhay ko, even my ex-boyfriends couldn't stand my attitude dahil sobra raw akong walang gana sa kanila.
FLASHBACK
"Ash, I just want to say na...... I'm sorry." Nakatingin lang ako sa paper works na hawak ko galing sa school.
"For what?" Tumingin ako sa kanya na nakatayo sa harap ko habang nandito kami sa backyard ng bahay.
"I-I cheated on you." Tinignan ko lang siya na tila ba wala lang yung sinabi niya.
I didn't feel anything, required ba na makaramdam ng sakit pag nalaman mo na nagcheat sayo yung boyfriend mo?
"Okay." Bumalik ako ng tingin sa papel na hawak ko at kinuha yung ballpen ko.
"Wait, what?! Is that it? You don't feel hurt or betrayed? Ganun-
ganun na lang yun?"
"Ano bang gusto mong gawin ko?"
Bumalik ako ng tingin sa kanya na hindi makapaniwalang nakatingin sa'kin, akala mo nakakita ng multo.
"You really don't feel anything? Ano yun wala lang sayo na nag
cheat ako? Di ba dapat masaktan ka? Do you even care?!" I smirked at him nang sabihin niya yun.
"Anong gusto mong gawin ko? Maglupasay ako dito? Mag
makaawa na wag mo kong iwan at lumuhod sa harap mo?" Nakita ko sa itsura niya na parang siyang naluging nakatingin saakin.
"Wala ka talagang gana sa relasiyon natin ano? Wala lang ba talaga sayo lahat to?" Ngumisi ako lalo sa mga sinasabi niya. 'He's really insane.'
"I'm not one to beg for anyone. If you want to leave, then the door is wide open. Gusto mo pagbuksan pa kita eh." I give him a very sarcastic tone and rolled my eyes.
"Ganyanan pala ah! You! I will make sure you will regret this, Ash. Tandaan mo yan." Galit siyang nakaduro sa'kin, natapakan ko siguro ego ng lalaking to.
"Okay, and? Does it look like I care about you? Cause the answer is obviously, no. You're nothing to me." Ngumiti ako ng mapang-inis sa kanya bago tumayo sa kinauupuan ko.
Nakita ko sa mukha niyang nagpipigil lang sya, bumubuka ang bibig na tila may gustong sabihin pero walang ni-salita na lumabas. Kulang na lang umusok ulo niya eh.
"Leave. We're done." Kinuha ko yung mga papel sa lamesa bago ako nag
lakad papasok sa bahay.
END OF FLASHBACK
How pathetic they are. Did they seriously think na magmamakaawa ako sa katulad nila? No.
Even to my parents hindi ako nagmakaawa sa kanila na bigyan ako ng attention, sila pa kaya?
Hindi sila gold. They are just pieces of stones who are no better use than rubbish. I just use them for fun, ni-hindi ako nakaramdam ng kahit anong love or care for them.
I really don't believe in love, because for me, love is nothing but a scam.
Love is just a way for people to manipulate and gain power over you. Love is something good that exist only in fairytales.
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