(A/n) If you don't know what being a little and being big means, here comes a short explanation.
Being a little means that you slip in to a mindset of a much younger age, you talk and act that age. It can be triggered by actions of other people, it can also be triggered by situations or emotions. Some people can control when they slip into said mindset. Being big is when you act line your "normal self".
The correct term for this is ddlg or ddlb (Dom Daddy Little girl/boy), usually there is a caregiver involved who takes on a parental role. The relationship does not always involve sexual actions but alot of them do.
I just thought I needed to clear that up before we start. So yeah...RESUME CHAPTER!
Chapter 3:
I want to speak, to show him away.
But i stay frozen, my voice caught in my throat.
"Don'y you think? My dear, dear sister"
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(Y/n)'s Pov
I wake up in cold sweat, hyperventilating and frantic.
It's getting worse. I try to calm my breathing but it's difficult.
It takes several minutes for my body to calm down and realize that there is no real danger. I feel mentally drained and my body is exhausted. I can feel that I've slipped. Fuck.
Yes I am indeed a "little". A side of me that I have. supressed a long time has decided to show.
'I need to call Juri, it's going to be difficult to work the phone in this mindset and slightly embarressing. '
I find my phone at my nightstand. Unlocking it is the easy part, but fumbling through the the apps to find the contact list without being distracted by games or youtube was more difficult. Finally i find what i was looking for.
I press Juris name and put the phone up to my ear with a shaking hand.
I feel myself getting more nervous as the dial tone rings.
"uhhg, morning."
Juri.
"H-hi, c-cwan you come ovew? Pwease."
(Y/n).
"...(Y/n)..? Oh no...You slipped?"
Juri.
"Mhm..."
(Y/n).
"Don't worry, Juri is on his way. Stay put, don't touch anything and please please stay out of the kitchen."
Juri.
"O-okway.."
(Y/n).
Ending the call with a sigh. 'I did the right thing, right? Sure he isn't my caregiver but he is basically my brother. I just thought I supressed this side to the point were it wouldn't resurface.
Apperently I was wrong.
What would my soulmates think of me if they saw me like this?
Would they be disgusted? They would right?
Mom always told me that nobody could love someone who acts like a child.
Growing more scared at my thoughts, I crawl up to the center of my bed and wrap myself inside my blanket. Tears streaming on my cheeks.
Maybe it's best if I never find my soulmates.
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Juri's Pov
"Don't worry, Juri is on his way. Stay put, don't touch anything and please please stay out of the kitchen."
After the call ended I storm around the apartment I share with Yujin.
Digging through old boxes trying to find all the items i need for this particular situation.
(Y/n) haven't slipped in a long time and I don't know how she will handle it.
I know for myself that being a little isn't that anusual. But her family shamed her for it and it has left a big scar in her.
I've tried to talk to her about it, she just won't listen. (Y/n) has it inprinted in her mind that it's disgusting and shamefull.
God I just get so damn angry the more I think about it!
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