Embracing the Uncertainty//Poetry

All of you

You allured me in ways I couldn't fathom,
I've longed for the wicked and weak in you,the good and the vulnerable in you,
I've always wanted all of you,
every scar you possessed and every tear you've shed,every smile,every smirk,every wink and every other thing that makes my heart explode. I've wanted it all.
But I never had you. You weren't mine to have.You never loved me they way I loved you.
And it kills me,because loving you taught me madness,
A madness that makes you love beyond your heart's competence,
The one that leaves you feeling complete and gives you wings to fly.
But you broke my heart and you shattered our forever in a million little pieces,
And even If I scrape my heart out and destroy whatever is left of you, I couldn't hate you,
because for as long as I've known you
I loved you infinitely.
So I'll fill this journey from heartbreak to moving on with love and not hate,
Because it's easier for me to love you,
Until my heart gives in and surrenders to a heart that loves me more than yours ever did.