Embracing the Uncertainty//Poetry

Illusion

I spend my midnights wanting to unlove you.
I've loved you in a thousand ways and would have loved you in a thousand more.
But this beating heart of mine longs for nothing but a way that will lead you back to me.
Your love was just an illusion that I mistook for being magic to my soul.
My heart sank in the ocean of unfulfilled promises and betrayal.
I sank deeper and deeper losing myself with every passing minute.
All I wanted was you to hold my hand and swim along with me.
But somewhere deep in my heart I knew,
that I wanted to be saved more than wanting to be rescued by you.
And the moment I realised this,not a single drop of pain could drag me to the bottom of that vast ocean.
It felt like every atom in my body swam it's way to right to the top.
And life seemed beautiful in that moment.