Always, I'll Care

Driving down the interstate
I've never felt so far away
Leaving hardly hurts at all
I'm sorry that I never call

Mingi hopped on his car and drove after Wooyoung busted in the room where everyone is. They were hanging out as usual but ever since Y/N went away, it became quieter and duller. Everything is the same but at same time, it's not. Mingi didn't stop looking for Y/N too, in his own way. He started looking within the city. He felt stupid because if Y/N wants to get away from him, he knew she wouldn't stay but he wanted to make sure. The others discovered that he was searching on his own on night when he came home late and drenched from the rain. They joined in the search after that.

"I know where Y/N is." Wooyoung said. Everyone's head turned to look at him in surprise, "Where? How did you find her? Are you sure it's her?!" Mingi exclaimed as he stood up. "I went out with a friend. He said she saw Y/N and he was sure it's her." Wooyoung replied. "How sure is he? What if..." Yeosang trailed off, "What if it's not her." Wooyoung nodded and smiled, "I know, we can't be sure. But he said that he visited his grandma, she made dalgonas for a living and she told my friend that there's this pregnant girl that buys from her. He said that her grandma told her that the girl's name was Y/N."

Mingi immediately felt hopeful. His breath hitched and his heartbeat sped up. "If that's the case," Hongjoong stood up and faced Mingi, "we should go check it out. You got the address, right Woo?"

"Yes, I did." Wooyoung nodded. "If it's not her, then at least we tried. Besides, it's the only lead we've got." Hongjoong continued. Mingi nodded and got his keys. "Wait," Yunho suddenly said, "Mingi should go alone."

"But...why?" San asked, "We want to see her too."

"I know, San. I want to see her too, but I think we should sit this out and wait. Let Mingi go alone." Yunho said. Seonghwa agreed, "He's right now that I think of it. They need to talk this out by themselves and fix whatever that's left." Seonghwa explained. The others seemed convinced as Mingi suddenly felt nervous. He knew what he's supposed to say, he was prepared for the consequences after, but he still can't help but worry. "We'll still support and cheer for you, Mingi. Don't worry." Yunho smiled at him. "We still got you. Call us and keep us updated, if you need us, we'll go and come to you." Jongho reassured him, patting his shoulder. "I'll text you the address. Good luck, Mingi." Wooyoung stated.

Often I get exhausted
Trying regardless to be enough
Is it selfish not to be selfless
When all I can help is to open up?

Mingi drove for 3 hours and he was starting to get exhausted. He pulled over a marketplace and decided to buy some water. His bones cracked when he tilted his neck to the side. He took a deep breath before he got out of his car. He stretched causing his back to crack as he walked towards a convenient store. He shivered a little as the cold air from the store hit him. He got a bottle of water and paid for it. He walked back to his car as he gulped down.

He thought about what he was going to say to Y/N again, like he did countless of times. His thoughts wandered to how he was before she left. He was too stubborn to admit his feelings for her when they were in college. He wanted to prove to no one and to himself that what he's feeling towards Y/N is just a small crush and nothing more. So he started to date and play around even after she agreed to his friends with benefits deal. He was stupid, he knew that. But after college he realized that he was hurting himself by trying to make those feelings disappear, so he decided to get better and work his way up slowly. But he still couldn't get himself to end the deal with her so he started sleeping with her less, focusing on his work more, and when opportunities come, cuddle with her.

I'll be better than I was before
Despite every text of yours ignored
Will you call me still, just to hear my voice?
I swear, always, I'll care

What he didn't expect is for her to feel the same. So, when he cuddled with Y/N, he tried to savor the time and make it last for as long as he could. He pretended to be asleep when she talked. She confessed to him, telling him that she loves her, and he does love her back. His heart beat fast and hard that he was scared that she might hear it when she laid her head on his chest. He wanted to say it back to her that night, but he stopped himself. He wanted to hear everything she thought about him, he promised to himself that he'll be better than he was, and he did.

Flipping through our photographs
Those moments never seem to last
Listening to self-control
Those feelings that you'll never know

He sat in his car and he continued to drive to the address Wooyoung sent to him. He had a hard time focusing on the road since his thoughts fly back to Y/N. His eyes tearing up at the thought that she left because of him and for him. He promised himself he'll find her and make thing right, even if she wouldn't take him back. Mingi was hers, not officially, but Mingi knew that she has his heart ever since back then. He was just stupid to admit it to himself.

Leave me, it's never easy
I've had a lifetime to be alone
If you let me, when it gets heavy
Know I'll never let you be all alone

He stopped in front of a cozy little house. It was a little bigger than those cheap apartments in Seoul and it had some plants on the windowsill. He got out of his car and walked towards the door of the house; his chest almost painful from his heart beating too fast. He pressed the doorbell and a faint buzz followed by a muffled "Coming!" was heard. The door swung open and there stood a girl, wide eyed with tears threatening to fall. "Mingi?" Y/N whispered as her hands cupped her mouth.

Mingi choked up as he looked at her. She was pretty much the same, if not, she became prettier to his eyes. Her hair tied up in a messy bun, she was wearing a sweater and some leggings, letting him know that she was staying in. His eyes trailed to the bump in her stomach as tears flow from his eyes. "Y/N," he said just louder than a whisper. "I love you too, please... Take me back in your life." He sobbed. Y/N was also crying, her hands slowly falling to her sides, clutching the ends of her sweater. "How...did you find me?" she said breathlessly. "Wooyoung got me your address this morning. I immediately drove here." He tearfully explained, stepping closer to her.

I'll be better than I was before
Despite heavy texts of yours ignored
Will you call me still, just to hear my voice?

He sniffed as he slowly circled her waist to hug her. "Please, don't leave me again. Don't pull away. Yunho told me everything, he said why you left." He pulled away from her and put his hand on Y/N's cheeks, "I love you too, I always have. I'm sorry for everything that I did, I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for not telling you how I feel when you confessed to me that night. I'll better for you, I'll make up and love you the way you deserved to be. Please forgive me."

Y/N's breath hitched as her eyes widened, her hands holding Mingi's hand that's on her cheek. "You knew?" she asked as she looked at his eyes directly. Mingi didn't avert his gaze and put their foreheads together. "I did, I planned to confess to you, but you left and..." he paused and took a deep breath, "I love you. I always did. So please let me take care of you. Take me back and let me prove to you that I can be better, I will be better. For you and our child."

Y/N sobbed as she hugged him and bury her head in his chest. Mingi hugged her back and didn't let go. "Mingi," Y/N said, looking at him with tear stained cheeks, "I still love you too." Tears flowed from Mingi's eyes once again as he kissed her passionately. They pulled away from each other after a few seconds to breathe and Mingi wiped her tears with his thumb. "Don't leave me again. I'll take care of you, I promise."

I swear, always
Always
Always, I'll care