Losin Control English

February, 2016

Alexis' POV

I woke up with the ring of my phone filling the room, opened my eyes slowly and stretched my arm to get the phone, the room was dark and the light from the phone blurred my vision, I answered the phone without knowing who it was.
"Hello?" My voice came out louder than expected.
"Oh, Lexi, I'm sorry! Did I wake you?" I recognized Ella's voice.
"Hi, yes, you did, but it's okay! Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I don't know! Something happened yesterday!" I sat in bed.
"What happened?"
"You know that yesterday I went out with Zayn, we went to an Italian restaurant, we ate and we stayed talking for a long time, and we went to his house afterward, because the restaurant was going to close, then we were talking more on the couch and then he kissed me, and we made out!"
"What? You made out with Zayn?"
"Yeah, the worst part, or the best part, I don't know! I loved being with him!"
"Okay, you got Z, and you liked it! What does that mean?"
"That's why I called you, what does that mean?"
"How would I know? You'll have to ask him!"
"It's no secret, but you can keep it to yourself, let's see what happens now, if we keep making out or if it was a one-day thing!"
"What do you want to happen?"
"I don't know, I'm quite afraid of having a serious relationship, but at the same time, I'm very eager to know what it would be like with him! I'm sure it's going to be a lot different than it was with James, but I'm scared."
"Okay, you didn't answer my question, what do you want to happen?"
"At this point, I just want to kiss him again, because it was really good!"
"My God, do you hear what you're saying?"
"What's the matter, you said that when you first kissed Niall!"
"True, well remembered! I don't think we had a chance to talk about you and James, did he come to you or did you hear from him at all?"
"He was in a terrible state when I went to deliver his things, but I didn't talk to him anymore, nor did I try to find out! I'm better off this way, he was definitely not the right guy for me! The best thing is: I don't miss him."
"This is great, a great advance for those who couldn't stay one day without talking to him! I think what he did also helped that, made you want to walk away. You've come to a point in the relationship that you didn't know any more than you were capable of, there's no future in a relationship like this!"
"I wonder what it would be like if I hadn't broken up with him, what would happen if we fought anymore, would he hit me? Or what he would do, I'm afraid to even think!"
"Oh, my God, Els, isolate it! Just the fact of imagining things sometimes attracts."
"For real, my mother always said that when you think about something a lot, it comes true."
"So don't even think about it, focus on what's going on with Zayn now, and hope for something with him, because that's what I'm hoping for here!"
"That's right, I'll focus on Zayn, if it works out if it doesn't! Even though he didn't warn the world that he broke up with Gigi!"
"Then it'll sort itself out over time. I'm hanging up, I need to pack up, Niall's flying in today."
"All right, I'm going out with Zayn again, he said it's a surprise, and I'll have to trust him!"
"Kisses, I love you!"
"Kisses, I love you too! Enjoy it with Nialler!"
"You got it!" I hung up the call, and I got up.
I was feeling that night would be the best I ever had with Niall.
The nervousness was strong, but at the same time, I was too happy to worry about the nervousness.

Ella's POV

My tummy was hurting when I realized it was two minutes before Zayn arrived in my building to pick me up.
Before I made out with Zayn I wasn't nervous when he was coming to get me, but on that particular day my stomach had created a life of its own, and it seemed to keep moving inside me. My hands were soft, and I looked at the cell phone screen every five seconds to see if there were any messages or calls.
I wore a short black skirt, with black cropped long sleeves, with a black high heel shoe. My makeup was as basic as I could get.
My cell phone rang and I got a message at the same time that I decided to go have a glass of water in the kitchen. I ran to the cell phone with the glass in hand, and saw that the message was from Zayn telling me that he had arrived in my building, I left the glass on the coffee table in the living room, took my bag, my cell phone and the white overcoat and left the apartment. I got into the elevator when it opened on my floor and went down to the lobby.
Zayn's car was parked in front of the gate when I hit my eye on that dark blue car my heart raced and the wrapping in my stomach increased.
When I came out of the gate, Zayn got out of the car and welcomed me with a smile, followed by a little kiss and a hug.
"You look beautiful!" Zayn commented as soon as he came out of his hug.
"Thanks, you too!" I put my hand on his hair.
"Hey, it took you long enough to leave it that way!" Z used his hand to fix his hair. "You ready, let's go?"
"Yeah, I'm a little anxious, I hate surprises." He hugged me again.
"You can relax, I won't kidnap you and then kill you! I promise you'll like it, and if you don't like it, you can get out of my life!"
"I couldn't even if I wanted to!" Zayn smiled and gave me another kiss. "Z, we..."
"We have to go, true!" He opened the car door and I went in.
I threw my overcoat in the back seat and watched Zayn turn the car around to get in next to me. He sat in the driver's seat and smiled before starting the car.
"Happy Valentine's Day, by the way!" The car's engine made a noise warning that it had been started.
"Happy Valentine's Day?" I asked confused. "Zayn, are we..."
"Have you seen my clip with Gigi?" I denied it with my head.
"I haven't had time, you realize how long it has taken me to respond lately, it's hard to manage academic, professional, and social life! Alexis complained that I am missing! I know I promised to see it, but I'm really out of time."
"I understand, speaking of professional life, we travel next week, you know that, right?" I nodded.
"All of Europe! I'm sorry, I promise I'll watch your clip." I got my cellphone. "You know what, I'm going to watch it now, taking advantage we're in the car!"
"Great idea!" I unlocked the phone.
I looked up the music, and I saw the video cover.
When I saw Zayn and Gigi on the cover of the video my stomach wrapped up again.
"All right, let's go!" I clicked on the video and waited for it to load.
The clip started with Gigi and Zayn close enough to kiss, and I felt the sweat of my hand return. I took a deep breath, trying to stay as calm as possible. It wasn't as if they had come back, if they had come back he wouldn't be going out with me just on Valentine's Day. My thoughts calmed down as the clip went by, and my heart slowed down, the wrapping in my stomach was gone, and my hands were dry again.
I had nothing to do with Zayn, I couldn't demand anything from him.
"Does she cry blood?" I paused the video and looked at Zayn. "Why?"
"Do you understand the context of the music? It is contradictory music where it says that we live in a relationship that is always on the brink of war, but at the same time is a paradise. The tears only mean the little suffering that the relationship transmitted."
And finally the kiss, my heart raced again and I thought I was going to die.
"I can't, I'm sorry!" I blocked the phone and put it back in my purse.
"What? You watched the whole video and in the end, you can't? What do you mean, you can't?" Zayn stopped at a red light and looked at me.
"I'm glad you don't kiss her all over the video, I'd be much madder!" He had a weak laugh.
"Are you jealous?" I denied it with my head. "Come on Els, it's just an old clip, the first one actually! It's not like we're back together, she was a model and my girlfriend at the time and they thought it would be nice to put her in the clip, that's all!" He put his hand on my thigh, which was totally exposed. "You don't have to be jealous, okay?"
"I'm not jealous! You stayed together for over a year, and after they broke up you ask me to watch this video, and you ask me to watch it one day after you kissed me! How do you expect me to feel?" The traffic light opened at the same moment.
"Proud?" Zayn accelerated the car, and I took my gaze off him, looked out the windshield, and saw the London Eye.
"Where are we going?" I asked in a lower voice than before.
"I told you, it's a surprise. By the way, can you put that in your eye?" He gave me a black hairband.
"Why is that?" I analyzed the band.
"Because it's a surprise and I want you to see it only when we're in place!"
I shrugged and put the band on my face. It was very dark, and I felt the car stop, I heard the handbrake being pulled and Zayn's hand had disappeared from my thigh.
"Here we are!" Zayn loosened my seat belt. "Wait a minute.
The car was silent and I was tempted to take the band out of my eye. When I raised my hand to the band, the door next to me was opened.
"Shall we?" I nodded and reached out to Zayn.
I got out of the car and Zayn closed the door. He pulled me up against the car door, and I felt his breath close to my nose.
"I hope you enjoy this evening without thinking about anything but this moment. My clip with Gigi means nothing, what it means is here and now with you, ok? "
"Okay!" I felt Zayn's lips join mine, and a sweet kiss began.
My heart slowed down again and my mind calmed down, I was with Zayn, we were kissing, even though I didn't know what it really meant, I was happy to be with him.
"So, are you ready?" Zayn spoke as soon as he separated our lips.
"I look forward to it! "
"Come on, no spying, you'll have to trust me!" He held my hand and intertwined our fingers, we walked slowly for a while, we stopped and he let go of my hand. "Stay here!
I could hear conversations around me, I felt people passing in front of me and behind me. I was once again tempted to take the band off of my eyes, but I remembered that Zayn asked me to trust him, and that's what I would do.
"All right, let's go!" We walked some more. "Step, up slowly." I followed his voice and shook his hand when I stepped on it and almost fell. "Watch out! Come on, you can sit here!" I felt the place and saw it was a soft bench.
I sat down and looked for Zayn who had let go of my hand. I found him sitting next to me.
"Can I take the band off now?" I held his hand, and I leaned against his body.
"Not yet!" Zayn wrapped my body with his arm.
It was amazing how small I was around him, how perfectly involved his arm was. My head fit perfectly into the gap between his shoulder and his neck, I could smell his scent mixed with his natural scent, and I could tell that his face was close to mine by feeling his beard on my forehead.
"I'm starting to get sick of this sash, let me take it off, please!" I asked when the place we were sitting moved. "Where are we?
"Remember you never had a perfect Valentine's Day, and it really seemed like Valentine's Day? I wanted to surprise you with a real Valentine's Day, maybe not with the company you expected, but I want it to be perfect!
I felt Zayn's lips glued on mine once again, he caressed the back of my neck, and his hand went up to the sash, he took the sash from my eyes, but I kept them closed because I was enjoying the kiss. After a while, we broke the kiss and I realized I was smiling, my eyes were still closed, and I felt Malik's lips still close to mine.
"I'm with exactly the person I wanted to be with!" I gave him another quick kiss.
"You can open your eyes!" I opened my eyes slowly and looked out the window.
I was tall and could see the whole city of London, my heart raced again and a genuine smile appeared on my face, I felt a tear run down my cheek. It was beautiful, so bright, so perfect.
"Have you ever been on a Ferris wheel?" I heard Zayn's voice after a while. We were standing on top of the London Eye.
"No, it's perfect Z!" I threw myself into his arms, and I held him. "Thanks, you're great!"
"I'm glad you like it, I have a proposition for you!" I let him go, but I still sat on his lap.
"What?" The smile was still on my face, my arm around his neck, and his arm around my waist.
"Well, we're closer than I thought, and we relate in a way I didn't expect. We've been working together for almost a month now, and I'm very happy that you've come into my life." He took a deep breath and I imitated him. "Through all of this, I wonder if you want to stay with me!"
"But I'm with you, Z!
"Yeah, but I want to be alone with you, like just the two of us!"
"Like be your girlfriend?" I think the answer to the question I asked myself all that day would be answered that night.
"Yeah, actually that's the question I should ask, isn't it, if you want to be my girlfriend?" It was concrete, Zayn Malik was asking me to be his girldriend.
"It could be!" I nodded, and a smile appeared on his face.
"Is that okay?" I smiled at him, and I got a quiet kiss.
When we stopped the kiss I came out of Zayn's lap and sat down next to him with our hands held, looking out the window once again.
"Wow, it's beautiful! I loved it!"
"It's just the beginning of the night, we still have some things to do. Shall we?" I nodded, and Zayn swung in the booth, and the Ferris wheel turned again.
"Was it all planned?" I asked while I was still looking out the window.
"Do I by any chance do anything without planning?"
"How long have you been working on this? Must have been the hardest work!"
"Nothing Sarah can't handle, you've seen what she's like, full of contacts to get what she wants!" I could tell, Sarah really had a wide range of contacts.
We left the Ferris wheel and walked to a restaurant nearby, we were photographed by some paparazzi when we left the restaurant, but we didn't mind. We went to my apartment and chatted and laughed for hours until we slept on the sofa and woke up on the living room sofa with the sunlight beating on our faces.