Losin Control English

December 2016

Zayn's POV

"Zayn is one month away if you want to change your mind yet!" Ella spoke by dropping the bag on the couch of her apartment.
"What are you talking about?" We had just come back from the buffet, we had seen the last details of decoration and distribution of tables and chairs.
"You look like you're fed up! Whenever I talk about wedding or things that need to be resolved, you make these faces. If you don't want to talk anymore, just let me know!" Els showed up with a glass of water in her hand and an aspirin pill in the other.
"Hey, I didn't do anything!" Ella nodded, threw the medicine in her mouth, and took a sip in the water.
"Exactly, it's exhausting to do it all by myself!" I wasn't understanding anything anymore.
In the last few weeks, Ella was more stressed with this marriage than before, and if I gave my opinion she was angry if I didn't give my opinion she was angry too. She was losing patience very fast, she didn't want to sleep in my house anymore, she was crying when she had to go on a trip for a day or two with Niall, she was complaining about all the fans, she wasn't understanding anything anymore.
"Baby, sit here!" I sat on the couch and I hit my hand on the seat next to me.
"You'll try to calm me down, but you won't succeed!" I pulled her by the hand, and she sat next to me.
"Is everything okay? Do you want to talk, talk about something?" Ella took a deep breath and I imitated her.
"It's one month to our wedding, and I can't stop working to focus on that, I have to manage Niall's career and yours, I have to travel to all countries, I have to be everywhere, then I don't have time to see the last details, and I feel that nothing is ready. Even Alicia telling me that it's all right, that I don't have to worry, then the dress is never perfect, there's always a little something to get right. And you didn't even go to see your suit and the boys'. It's two days to the new year and I couldn't think of anything for us to do. There are still those dinners from those magazines you always go to and the record company. And my period never comes, it's always late, so I get desperate thinking that I'm pregnant, and all I can't do now is have a baby. Then I'm tired, that's the truth." Els let go of the air and threw her head on my shoulder.
"All right, I understand! Here's the deal. Niall's out of town with Lexi and they're just coming back for the wedding, you've got a break from his schedule. I'm off, I won't be back till February. You don't have to worry about the two artists you represent. Alicia already made it clear that everything's perfect, that you can be carefree, she's professional, and knows what she's doing. Dinners are over, the year is ending, you don't have to worry about those things anymore. And about you being pregnant, there's no possibility, we always preserve ourselves and everything will be fine! About your tiredness, you'll go to bed, get some sleep, I'll make our dinner, and think of something for the new year. Deal?" Ella nodded slowly.
"You sing for me?" I laughed weakly and started humming his favorite song from my album: "truth".
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Ella had been sleeping in her room for more than 2 hours, I had already gone to the market and bought everything I needed to make dinner, I passed by the pharmacy and bought some pregnancy tests.
I was finishing dinner when Alice called on my cell phone, I had texted her earlier to hang up so she could call me when she could.
"Hey, Z!" Alice was in a lively voice.
"Hey, Ali! How are you?"
"I'm fine, how are you?"
"That's a tough question to answer! I'm fine, but..."
"Is Els not okay? What happened?" Alice interrupted me, it was amazing how much she looked like her sister.
"So she's pretty tired, a lot of work and more wedding stuff to sort out. It makes me worry because she's really mad about everything and everyone." Alice agreed across the line.
"I tell you, she never has time to talk to me." I nodded.
"Exactly, I was thinking of taking her to Hertfordshire by next week. What do you think?"
"I don't know if she's going to be very calm here, because my mom's going to be filling her head with questions about the wedding and she's going to be more stressed out. Can't you take her to Bradford?"
"Do you think it would be better to take her to my family's house? You have no idea how girls torment her! Is there somewhere she always wanted to go but never was?"
"Oh that's hard to get because she's gone everywhere with James! Then she started working with you and with Niall, she travels more than anything, right? But she never went to Brazil!"
"And you think she'd like to go to Brazil?"
"Ah I have no doubt, she always wanted to know the beaches from there and Central America, as you go to the Bahamas on your honeymoon, I think it would be nice to take her to Brazil!" She took a break. "What's the name of the city she wants to see? Hold on, oh mom!" Alice screamed and then her voice disappeared, I waited for her to come back and tell me about the city. "She said she wanted to meet Salvador, I don't know where it is, but you should find it on the internet."
"All right, Ali! Thanks for the help!"
"Imagine, needing me I'm here! I love you, Z!"
"I love you too, little one! Until the wedding then, happy new year!"
"For you too!"
The call was ended, and the food was ready. I decided it was time to wake up Ella.
I went to her room, where she slept serenely, just as I had put her to bed, she remained. I sat down next to her and touched her hair.
"Els!" I called quietly, and she mumbled. "You want some dinner?"
"I think so!" She opened her eyes and smiled.
"Are you feeling better?" She nodded. "I bought you some things to make you feel better, I made you some strogonoff, and I brought you some red velvet cake from Starbucks."
"You're the best husband in the world!" She covered her mouth. "You're not my husband yet, but you look like it!" I laughed.
"Come and have dinner!"
Els got up and we walked to the dining room holding hands. She sat in front of me and served herself. We ate in silence, she ate the dessert alone while I bought the tickets to Salvador.
"Baby, let's travel this on New Year!" I spoke when I finished the purchase and the hotel reservation.
"Travel, Zayn? We can't!"
"Of course, we can, we'll go this morning, and come back next Saturday! So go pack your bag, put on warm clothes, bikini and stuff. I'll go to my place and pack my bag and come back to you. Our flight is at 2 am, it's 9:30 pm, you have plenty of time to pack!" I got up from the couch and kissed her on the forehead. "Oh and I bought these pregnancy tests to make sure you're not pregnant! I love you!"