Losin Control English

September, 2016

Alexis' POV

"When will you be back?" I asked Niall.
"I'm not sure, but I'll be home by the end of the month!" Niall was with a worried look.
It was my birthday month, and there were exactly ten days left before that important date for me, and apparently, I wouldn't have my fiancé and best friend by my side.
"Lexi!"
"Yeah?"
"I thought the connection stopped. Are you going to be okay for a few more days?"
"I'm used to the fact that you live on the road, Ni!" I shrugged.
"You know if I could I'd be there with you already!" I nodded with a small smile. "I love you, Lexi!"
"I love you too, Ni!" I tried my best to disguise how upset I was that he didn't remember that in a few days, it would be my birthday.
"Niall?" Someone knocked on the door of Niall's hotel room.
"Who is it?" I asked when I realized it was a female voice.
"It must be Ellie!" She knocked again and called him again, for an instant I wanted to be on the other side of the screen to open the door.
"Go answer it, I need to get ready for Vogue's dinner! I love you, Niall!"
"I love you too, Lexi! Let me know when you get to dinner and when you come back home!" I nodded.
I hung up without saying anything else. I blocked the phone, put it on the bed, and let my frustration escape through my eyes.
Ever since I started dating Niall he had never missed a birthday of mine, and I hadn't missed a birthday of his. That was the biggest reason for my sadness, I was away from Niall on his 25th birthday, and he would be away from me on my 20th birthday.
I didn't know how to handle it!
My phone started ringing. I looked at the screen and saw Zayn's name written on the screen, ignored the call, and buried my face in the pillow. The strident ringing continued, stopped for two seconds, and rang again.
Was it so hard to understand that I didn't want to talk to anyone?
The ringing stopped, two minutes later it rang again, I picked up the phone and threw it away from the bed.
"Shut up!" I yelled.
He could have been celebrating his birthday with me, but he was celebrating with that watery blonde bitch.
I threw the portrait on the bedside table next to my bed on the wall.
"Bitch!" I yelled again.
God knows what they could be doing, why she went to his room at eight o'clock at night? Why did it take so long for those damn pictures to be ready?
I threw the lamp on the wall too, and it made the noise of glass breaking because of the lamp.
I couldn't hold back my tears, so I got up and picked up a shard of glass next to the wall where all the other things thrown hit.
I looked at the glass shard and my arm scars.
It's been a long time since I've felt so much desire to transfer my pain to a place other than my heart.
"Why aren't you here?" I got down on my knees, felt shards of glass hurt my knees. "Why?" I screamed.
"Alexis?" I heard Zayn's voice behind the door.
"Get out of here, leave me alone!" Zayn slammed the door and forced the lock. "Get the fuck out!"
I passed the shard of glass in my hand over the scar, a little blood came out and the acute pain took over my arm.
"Ouch!" I mumbled.
The door opened fast and I hid my arm behind me.
"Lexi, what happened?" My tears stopped falling.
"Nothing!" I dropped the glass shard and dried my face. "It's okay!"
I stood up and felt the cuts on my knees burning.
"Ouch." I looked at the wounds and forgot for a minute about my arm.
"Lexi, you got hurt!" Zayn got my hurt arm. "How did you do that?"
"It was nothing, Zayn, I'm just going to change!" I walked to the bathroom and washed my face, passed a wet towel on my knees and arm.
I opened the door that gave way to the closet, which we had built less than a month ago. I grabbed a long dress, with a crevice on the left side, and sleeves fulfilled. I put on my black heel, and I let my hair down from the bun. I looked in the mirror and smiled. I took my makeup kit and made the world's simplest and fastest makeup.
Coming out of the closet with a fake smile, Zayn was sitting on the bed looking at the picture of the portrait door I threw away.
"You cut yourself on purpose, Alexis!" My smile suddenly disappeared. "You want to tell me what's going on or are we going to pretend it never happened?"
"It's okay, Z, just relax! Come on, we're already late." I left the room, and walked carefreely, my knees hurt, but I tried to ignore it as much as I could.
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Zayn and I were walking along the red carpet, we stopped a few times to take some pictures, I took pictures alone and photos with Zayn.
To look happy during work was something easier for me, when I had a distraction it was easy to forget that my fiancé was doing whatever with that girl he was doing the Calvin Klein catalogs with.
"Earth to Lexi!"
"Yeah?" I answered Zayn trying to smile at least with my eyes.
"You haven't answered almost any questions, is everything okay?"
"Yes, let's go in!" I pulled Zayn by the arm and we entered the salon full of models and people supposedly important, but who I didn't know.
"Alexis, Alexis!" A group of reporters came at me. "Alexis, are you and Niall over? Alexis, are you going to date your best friend's boyfriend now? Alexis, what did Niall do was the reason for the breakup?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Alexis, did you see what happened? Alexis, why don't you answer? Alexis, talk to us!" My head started spinning and everything started getting a little blurry, that's when it all went out.
I was keeping my eyes closed, but I realized that the light from where I was, was on. I opened my eyes slowly, and saw that the ceiling from where I was standing was white, I looked to the side and saw a big glass window, on the other side there was a white wall next to it there was a corridor, and I couldn't see what was there.
I looked ahead and saw that it had a fridge, next to it a large travel bag with a sweatshirt on top, and a cell phone connected to the charger. On the wall was a TV on a sports channel.
My eyes began to grieve, and I fell asleep again.
"She's still sleeping!" I heard Niall's voice, but I didn't want to open my eyes. "I don't know what to do, Mother! I'm really scared, what if she doesn't wake up? I don't know what I'll do without her, Mother!" I opened my eyes slowly. "I think she's waking up, of course, I'll let you know! I love you too!" Niall put the phone on top of the bag again and came to me. "Hey, you're up! How are you?"
"Thisty. And a little bit sleepy still! Can I sleep more?" Niall handed me a cup of water, smiling.
"Of course, my love! I'll let the doctor know you're awake, but you can sleep!"