Love You Till The End ||Kim Taehyung||

16- Rain

                  Your cold face tells me everything rather than words
                I can see a break up rising over me like a high tide
                I know it will soon be our last, but I can't let you go
                   Don't talk, don't leave, just quietly hold me girl

                                                                                                              -Hold me tight

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                                                                                             18th November, 2017

Mi young's POV:

The shootings continued as usual, the scenes, however, really needed a lot skinship. Yoora was always on the set to cheer us up, that was another thing we didn't got her home-made food, but as far as we had her with us, we both were happy. I didn't realized that Taehyung actually started to talk to me again, not like a proper conversation, they were just distant questions like 'How are you?', 'We are getting late', 'do you wanna join us?' and yes, he didn't even spoke to me like that before. The dialouges in the movie were the only part where we 'actually' talked to each other. I was happy anyways. At least, he knows I still existed.

Today was day off so I decided to meet someone, I wanted to meet from a long time. Wearing my shoes along with the over sized black hoodie I took off the exit from the hotel and walked out in the streets going to the desired destination.

Telling at the reception that if somebody asked for me, tell them I went to graveyard, I turned towards the door, only to get interfered by Taehyung.

"Where are you going?" He asked in his infamous deep voice.

"Just to get some fresh air." I lied.

"It is going to rain, according to the weather forecast, heavily." He informed.

"I will get back soon." With that I left, not wanting to listen him anymore.

Walking down those familiar streets once again, I couldn't help but cry, tears were falling down my eyes constantly and first time after I left from here, I let them flow independently, I couldn't hold them, I just couldn't. This wasn't a co-incidence, all of it. Starting from the day I met you, I didn't realized but I fell for you, I fell for you Taehyung, but I contained it in, Just trying to tell myself that I don't deserve you, lieing to myself that you cheated on me but nothing helped, nothing. I just kept loving you, loving you from the far, hoping that one everything will be fine. I myself wanted to be proved wrong, because I know you weren't the one that day who told to the school about my dad. You just can't be. It was me, my hatred towards me, my hatred towards everything in my life, I thought everybody was wrong, including you, the one sent to me from god.

I am sorry, I am really sorry, but now I can't do anything, I am too weak. I can't even feel my heart anymore when you are not with me. These five years, I lied to myself that you were the one who hurted me, but it was opposite, I was the one who hurted you.

And now when you finally found your happiness, it is leaving you, it is getting far every minute and once again, I couldn't do anything. It will all be gone, you, me, Yoora and all our memories, everything, and the only one who will be responsible is me, ONLY ME!

Before I could realize I was already standing in front of my mother's grave and there kept the fresh flowers, which I obviously don't know who kept.