Alpha and Omega (Book 2): Emerald Secret Ein x Reader

Chapter 12: Trying To Help Ein Out

-Ein's POV-

I wake up a little while later in my bedroom a little better then before but still depressed but not much. y/n was snuggling and holding me close which was funny since I usually do that to her. I was more so confused on how I got in my bedroom because I never remembered walking back up to it that's when I look over at y/n "huh? I guess she carried me again to be honest I still can't believe she's that strong with out being in goddess form" I thought to myself.

I then remembered what happened earlier and started to cry again mainly in anger and sat up  "Damn It! I can't believe I almost killed myself in front of her I probably mentally scarred her a little and almost fucking scared her to death." "Why Am I So Fucking Irene Damn Stupid!" I thought to myself. I then punched the wall in anger causing the log to make a loud cracking sound. I had accidently punched it to hard making a hole in the cabin's wall.

But I only got worse again as I remembered which led me to remembering my horrible puphood only making me more depressed then I already was. I ended up getting so bad I rolled up my sleeve and dug my own claws deep into my forearm and slowly dragged them down my arm to cut it leaving a bleeding claw mark I think it hurt way more then using a knife to do it but I didn't care at all I wanted the pain so I could punish myself for trying to commit suicide in front of y/n earlier that day and just for the pain in general

When I punched the wall the loud crack of the log woke y/n up by accident. I didn't really care that I woke her up though I was kind of to angered and depressed at the same time to really even care. So instead I just pulled up my cloak's hood which shaded my face so she wouldn't notice I was crying again since I never took it off that day and just sat on the bed with my knees pulled into my chest crying. Until I heard y/n start talking to me which only made my ear twitch in response though I didn't really say anything.

y/n: "Babe are you alright?" "I heard a loud cracking sound" *feels a cold breeze shivering a little noticing the hole in the cabin's wall*  "Ein did you do that"

Ein: ...............

y/n: "Babe?" "I'm gonna guess yes" *uses magic to seal up the hole*

Ein: ..............

y/n: "Let me guess you're still depressed huh"

Ein: ...............

y/n: "I'm gonna take that as a yes as well"

Ein: ..............

y/n: "Come on Ein talk to me I know you can hear me so I know you're not ignoring me"

Ein: "N-No"

y/n: "What do you mean no"

Ein: "n-no I-I don't wanna t-talk"

y/n: "Ein" *tries to hug him but gets pushed away *

Ein: "N-no j-just leave me b-be"

y/n: "No" "what's the matter you keep going between a little better then depressed again"

Ein: "I-It's N-nothing"

y/n: "I know it's something so please tell me"

Ein: "N-NO!"

y/n: "Ein.....Please"

Ein: "FINE" "I Remembered What Happened Earlier And I'm So Fucking Stupid What Was I Thinking" "I'm Sorry You Had To See That" "I Also Started To Remember My Fucked Up Puphood" *cries harder*

y/n: *notices his forearm with the bleeding claw mark*  "E-Ein answer me truthfully Did It Really Get That Bad Again While I Was Asleep?"

Ein: "Wh-what do you m-mean"