Parley // Songfics [editing bc my eng is more basic than u]

Lovefool - The Cardigans

i decided to do this different¿
lmao just ignore me im a dumbass
Aaand one of my best friends know about this so im dead
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《Dear, I fear we're facing a problem, you love me no longer, I know》

Peter frowned unwittingly at his thoughts. He and Harley started dating about two years prior, and for him it seemed like his boyfriend wasn't as in love as he told him when they were still on high school.

Or so he thought watching Harley flirt unabashedly with the new intern who happened to be his age and go to MIT with Harley, even though Peter was in this college as well, he and the blond barely shared any classes, unlike Jeremy, the intern, who had most of his with the southern boy.

《And maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do》

If there was anger before, now there's only sadness on Peter's heart. He never actually believed himself to be good enough for Harley, but for a moment, he thought that maybe, just maybe, he could be sort of his perfect back up plan, due to his failed relationships before both boys started dating.

《Mama tells me I shouldn't bother》

Even thought it was obvious like the fact that he wasn't straight, May kept telling him it was all in his mind.

How dared she? Peter was in the middle of a crisis and she said that. Although he was sure it was to ease him.

《Lately I have desperately pondered, spent my nights awake and I wonder, what I could have done in another way》

After a few weeks, and several dates being cancelled by the blond, Peter kept telling himself it was his fault; maybe if he wasn't so stupid or so easy to embarrass.

Maybe if he didn't have this stupid need to apologize for nothing to everyone, he could have made thing last a little longer.

《Reason will not lead to solution, I will end up lost in confusion. I don't care if you really care, as long as you don't go》

Peter soon figured if Harley hadn't broken up with him yet, then why hurrying things up, right?

So he forced himself to enjoy the last of Harley he still had.

《So I cry, I pray and I beg: love me, love me. Say that you love me; fool me, fool me. Go on and fool me》

So Peter watched as his boyfriend (soon ex), proclaimed he loved him as he cancelled their dates to go out and 'help' Jeremy.

Putting on a fake, well practiced grin everytime he was ditched on by the taller one, Peter pretended to be a good boyfriend that understood and supported his partner. Repeating in his mind 'he loves me' as a mechanism to not cry everytime he received a call cancelling their plans. Even more when Harley called him, or well Harley's phone, but it was actually Jeremy who cancelled the date because Harley was in the bathroom, and apparently he knew Harley's phone password.

Peter didn't.

《Love me, love me; pretend that you love me. Leave me, leave me. Just say that you need me》

He knew it was gonna happen, Harley was gonna leave. So he prepared himself, being scared to death whenever Harley got serious and wanted to have a conversation.

Although he expected him to be a little more polite than kiss the intern in the middle of the hallway for anyone to see. It certainly broke his heart.

They didn't separate when he got to the floor they were in, nor when he left, and Harley didn't go up to their private floor for other two hours.

Recalling their first kiss, Peter cried all those two hours until Harley came up and found him on his bed, shaking up violently because of the hard sobs his crying produced.

《I wonder, what I could have done in another way》

Peter's mind was full of regrets, he wished he wouldn't  have gone to patrol at least one weekend to spend it with Harley.

He wished he would've let him be affectionate at school instead of being so scared of the stupid homophobes.

He wished he wouldn't have blushed and whined everytime Harley kissed him in front of their family.

He wished he could be like that other guy who didn't mind the PDA.

《I can't care 'bout anything but you》

And even when he sort of cheated on him (even if he saw it coming), Peter still couldn't help but blush at the memories of Harley calling him darlin'. Or the first time they said I love you. Or their first kiss.

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Harley ran to Peter when he saw the brunette from the door frame. Peter refused to talk so he asked Friday what was wrong and she only sent him the video of him and Jeremy on the low interns' floor.

The blond cursed under his breath as he walked back to Peter, who was now under the covers singing some stupid song about love fooling someone.

He tried to explain himself but Peter called Tony as his last option for Harley to let him cry his feelings out like a normal, heartbroken person would.

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Cringe🔝🔝
wrote at like 3am 2weeks ago

Glee vers