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San- It's complicated (PT. 1)

You were browsing in the snack aisle of the convenience store near your home. After a tiring day of university lectures, you really needed something to energize you and your favourite snacks were a safe bet.

You had finished picking them out and paying for them at the cashier, when you heard shouting coming from just outside the shop. You weren't the type to actually care about other people's drama but one of the voices was just too familiar to ignore. You walked towards the exit, halting just before stepping out, to come across San, your neighbour, and a girl, arguing, very loudly at that. So much so that passersby on the street stared and gave them bad looks.

Although your mind didn't apprehend the reason; you somehow found yourself stepping backwards and unintentionally hiding inside the store.  You kept on spying on them through the transparent wall, making sure you didn't catch their eyes. You were eavesdropping on someone's, your neighbour's, personal issue and you felt horrible about it, but that didn't stop you from doing so.

"San, I made myself really clear, what is it that you don't understand!?" The girl, who was one of the most beautiful girls you had ever seen, shouted.

"Why!? Sua, why can't you give me a chance!? You were the one that said I was the best guy you had ever been with, that I gave you the most pleasure. Then why are you breaking up with me!?" San retaliated, his words confused you.

"I am not, San. I cannot break up with you when we never had a relationship, in the first place! I am saying there is no reason for us to meet again." Her words confused you even more.

"We've been sleeping together for months now and you are telling me you felt nothing all along!?" His voice got louder.

"I didn't. San, when we started this, the rules were laid out first and foremost. You agreed to them, for god sake! Don't act like the victim!" She yelled.

"I admit that I started this 'friends with benefits' thing with no feelings at all but when time passed I found myself falling for you... and don't act dumb! Don't you dare tell me you didn't know! Did you think I whispered 'I love yous' only for you to have a greater experience!?" He yelled back.

Your hands instinctively covered your mouth, as you suppressed a gasp. What was happening? You didn't know how to wrap your head around what you had just heard. You were in complete disbelief, to say the least. The situation was so out of your mind that you couldn't even understand how it was happening in real life. It sounded like something straight out of a soap opera. It was even worse than that one ridiculous weekend drama your grandma forced you to watch.

"Yeah I know... I know I was wrong for playing along but... those days I was having a hard time and you made me feel treasured and loved... I didn't want you to stop proclaiming your love for me even if I didn't reciprocate your feelings... but the guilt would always haunt me and I couldn't do it anymore, not to you." She said with a softer voice this time, as she got closer to San and placed her hands on his shoulders. Her eyes teary. "Please... we should end things before you get hurt any further. I care for you, San."

"What... How could you..." San let out a sarcastic chuckle, as he dropped his head, his stare now fixated on the ground and his voice trembled; he was completely devastated. "I feel so pathetic right now, I am so crazily in love with someone who deliberately played with my feelings... You are so cruel Sua... You are telling me that whenever it felt as if we finally had mutual feelings for each other, it was all an act for you? You knew damn well that I would have gotten my hopes up and yet you went ahead and did it anyways! And what? You think you are doing this for me? You are wrong; you are doing this for yourself, so that you wouldn't feel the guilt!" He shook her hands off of him and took a step back, away from her. He glared at her. "I should have known... I should have know that you were a coward. When things get a little too emotionally troublesome for you, you just end it, regardless of the other person's feelings, only to make yourself feel better!" He scoffed. "And what? You care for me? Stop being a hypocrite! You never did! You don't know how to care for anyone else but yourself!" He yelled.