Chemical Kids And Mechanical Brides

~Thirty Four~

Weird things have been happening as of lately. like in our house... I'm not the only one who notice this happening. Mike was out on a date with Alysha. this house is a tad bit old soo yeah creepy. Vic was working on music and I was working on a drawing that I would hope to soon color sometime this week. I was working on the facial features of the girl I was drawing. I make a annoyed grown when my door creeks open and shuts. I turn around and see no one.

" Vic? It's not funny trying to scare the shit out of me. it will only end bad for you. " I grumble. I get back to work.

" HEY IRIS COME HERE A SEC AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OF THIS SONG! " Vic yells. I freeze up. Who the fuck just came in here then. I swallow the lump in my throat. I walk to Vic's room and sit on his bed.

" Did you come into my room like 2 minutes ago" I ask fiddling with my fingers. vic looks at me with concerned eyes. well our house is hunted.

" No I didn't... did You come in here earlyier? " He asks. my eyes widen. I start shaking my head. This is how we die. Vic makes a face but he was trying to be the tough big brother. which is sorta true on some accusations... just not this one.

" So this song you were talking about " I say changing the subject. he looks at me and nods.

" Yeah yeah right. " he says. he picks up his lyric book and sits on the bed next to me. He clears his throat before looking at me.

" Oh umm it's called hold on till may... umm yeah
She sits up high, surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
"Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I've been up here so long I'm going crazy!"

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

Now don't be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
"Big deal," she said, "I guess you're official."
I only said it 'cause I know what it's like to feel burned out

It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

If I were you I'd put that away
See, you're just wasted
And thinking 'bout the past again
Darling, you'll be okay

And she said,

-"If you were me, you'd do the same
'Cause I can't take anymore
I'll draw the shades and close the door
Everything's not alright and I would rather..."

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
Tell me where did it go?- " he sang. I look look at him and smile.

" It's beautiful vic! I love it by far my favorite." I smile. He blushes and closes his note book. He runs a hand in his messy and flops backward. I giggle and pick up his notebook. I read some of the other of his songs.

" Are you reading my songs baby sis?" Vic asks. I smile and flip the page.

" Yeah... they are really really good Vic." I say flipping the page again. all so beautiful. I read some of his side notes. most of them were about add something here or there. I take the pen out from the side and write him a side note. "It's beautiful Vic... I love it :)" I wrote in a few pages. I can tell when he was sad or angry at something. the words were really had strong meaning.

" Vic... all of these songs have such such strong meaning...I read some of your side notes and you can't be too hard on your self. I understand that you want them to be perfect but shit bro... some things are prefect the way they are. " I say looking down at him. He removes his arm from over his eyes and looks at me.

" Yeah... I know but I'll still push my self hard. Iris to be completely honest... I've felt like a piece of shit as of lately... I know I tried to kiss Jaime when drunk... I can't even maintain a heathy relation ship. I can't be happy when I see all these happy couples around me. am I that worthless... I can't even keep someone in my life. How many times to I have to be heartbroken and hate myself before I find the one. Iris I know you don't want to hear this... but I've felt like harming again...but then I-I see a disappointed pointed little sister who has to take care of her oldest brother. I don't want to feel like this. I hate being hurt over and over and over again. I can't take it any more " he whispers braking down. My jaw hung open. he felt like this and I didn't notice or he's just gotten really good at hiding how he feels. I snap out my little daze and look at my now crying brother. i went to say something anything but nothing came out.

" There are times I feel like I'm not good enough... I'm just the self harming freak older brother who has his younger siblings look after him. For fucks sake I'm the least talented. I can't draw play piano or play drums and get a girl. I get a girl and she brakes me down. mentally... things stick in my head and come flashing back some nights. iris it's hard keeping that promise I made to you... but I can't hurt my little sister...you are one of the most important people in my life. And I can't disappoint you. Not again " he whispers. I couldn't find the words to speak. I was the one who always had something to say. I always had a input for something. Vic was crying into his hands while his fingers griped his curly hair. What are you suppose to say to that.

" do you remember what I told you Christmas Eve. Don't let people in relation ships bring you down. you can't. Vic you are very talented. You can write songs that have an impact, you can play guitar, and piano. God fucking dammit Victor! I know how you feel. Hurt,betrayed,worthless, and anything between. I know how it feels. I felt like that all the times I've broken up with kellin. but look at the bright side I found someone who treats me right. Vic you have to work through the hard parts. I understand the amount of shit you've been put through but you can't let it run your life." I say. He was still crying. I sigh and fun a hand in my hair tugging at it a bit. I was pertty good at handling these type problems but to day is just like HAHAHAH no not today bitch. It was honestly scaring me.

" Vic please you have to relax...its already scaring me that I don't know what to do to help you. Do you want to burn stuff... do you want to punch something, watch movies, eat junk food, do you want me to leave. What do you want to to do? What am I suppose to do." I whisper in a brittle tone. I could feel tears well up in my eyes. My chest felt tight. I took a deep breath and held it then exhaled slowly.

" You have to help me out here... because I'm not going to walk out this room and leave you a crying mess. that's not me and you know it. " I whisper. he looks up at me.

" I just want a hug..." He say in a croaky voice. I get up and so dose he. I wrap my small arms around his waist and he dose the same. If I could murder every people whoa hurt my brother...there would be so many dead people. He had his chin rested on my hair. my brother was hurting and this is what he wanted. we stood like for a few minutes before moving away.

" Vic if you ever need someone to talk to... you can just come in my room and wake me up. I don't care if it's 2 I'm the morning and I'm dead asleep you can wake me up...because I'm not going to let you be hurting and stand by. " I say to him. He nods and wipes away his tears.

" Okay iris " he says. I smile.
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Okay I thought I posted this chapter Tuesday but I guess not. If you see I don't post a chapter feel free to message me on tumbler iistripforthesingles. I'll always respond or message me on here. Anyways love all of you and hope you liked this chapter.