Chemical Kids And Mechanical Brides

~ Chaper Thirteen ~

Jaime's P.O.V

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I hurt iris. That's all that goes through my head. That goes though my mine. I hurt her... I broke her. like kellin did. I took the best thing in my life and crushed it. I ruined the best thing to every happen to me. She perfect. Why did I have to get drunk. I want her in my arms. I want to kiss her good night. I messed up big time. I need her back. I can't live with out her. Her brother hate me I know it... but we still have the band. I can't take it. The guilt eats me up inside. I cry almost every night because I broke her. I can feel my self getting skinnier and skinner every day that passes. I don't feel hungry. every little thing reminds me of her. I stare at the picture of her and I. it was when we went to the beach with vic, mike, tony, Ronnie,Maddie, skylar, iris and I. It was before we dated. We were both sitting on a log and I had my arm around her shoulders and she had her head on my shoulder and her arm around my waist. We were watching the sunset. She looked beautiful that day. what am I saying she looks beautiful every day. I fucked up so much. I pick up the picture and look down at it. A tear drop rolls down my cheek and on the picture. oh iris I'm so fucking sorry. How could I do this to you. I just want to hold and kiss you. I want to hold in my arms forever. Will she take me back. Will her brothers even let me. I run a hand in my matted hair. I want her back. I need her back. I'm suck a fuck up. I lost my sunshine. I lost my everything. I want to scream at the top of my lungs till there's nothing left. cry till I can't cry no more. maybe this is why friends shouldn't date. I want to hold her hand so tight that I'll brake my wrist. my phone lights up from my night stand.

Victor Fuentes

" I want you to get back with my sister... she's been a hell of a mess... I know she's been crying every night. Jaime I don't care if you need my help but you need her back. She needs you back in her life. You are the best fucking thing to happen to her. I'm out side open your window or some shit... it's cold" I read. I run a shaky hand threw my hair and walk to my window. I see Vic's thin frame walking up the steps into the light. I hurry down the stairs and open the door.

" Hi Jaime...." Vic says quietly. I move aside so Vic can step in. I shut the door quietly behind me. we both tread up the steps and walk in my room. Vic sits in the bean bag chair in the corner of the room. I sit on the edge of my bed with my hands clasped together on my lap. Vic was looking straight at me.

" you need her back Jaime... I can tell you are hurting... Look I know I should be pissed that you hurt her... but I can see that you are all beat up about it. " Vic tells me. I look up at him with sad eyes.

" I am... I really am. Vic she's the best thing to happen to me. I fucked up so bad Vic... you shouldn't be this nice to me Vic... you should hate me. I said I would never hurt her and I did. Why would she take me back Vic." I stumble out. I feel like shit. I feel tears fall freely down my tan cheeks.

" Because she loves you idiot! she loves you a lot. Mike and I can tell by the way she looks at you. Hell even out parents can tell. Open your eyes Jaime. Even when she was little I could tell there was some type of feeling for you buried deep down inside of her. Jaime she never cried this much when kellin hurt her. Iris might have never showed her true feelings to you before you both dated... but i know her better then anyone else. That little ray of god damn evil loves you more then anything. By the way she acts around you...what she tells you... she thinks no one noticed but her eyes would light up when she saw you. Have you seen her room? she has a shit ton of picture of just the both of you! For heavens sake she even called you babe when she had problems with the pizza guy. Jaime! iris loves you more then anything! Fucking hell Preciado she cuddles only with you! She went out to the park with you! Jaime she has told me every little thing that you two have done. Like when you kissed her in front of kellin. Jaime I don't care what you do but you need her back." Vic say looking me dead in the eye.