Truly Beautiful

Seven: Habits

"Kat, could you not chew like a pig?" I asked over the phone.

Kat has been out of the help center for two weeks now. We still talked on the phone everyday.

"Oh yeah, shure. So last day then you get to go home. This is exciting." Kat said in the other line still munching on her chips.

Even though she she couldn't see me I scrunched my face. "I guess. In all honesty I am scared. I am now a senior and I am so scared." I say dragging out the so.

"Oh lovely." Kat whispered. "You will be fine. Love you have a whole three weeks to get back into normal life. Get with your friends talk, hangout, things like that. And most importantly stay clean." I have only know Kat for a few months but I know she gives the best advice. "Hey I have to go. I give you love."

Again even though she can't see me I shook my head, "Ok bye." And she hung up.

I close my eyes and wonder. Will everything be the same?

No stupid question! Diferent, things will be different. I just can't wait to see my family.

I looked over to the window and sighed, it was raining out. I returned to packing my things. Cloths, pictures, things like that.

I had one last meeting to go to, so I slipped on jeans and a tee-shirt with a rain cote overtop. I walked to my doctors office, and walked in.

Dr.Welisam smiled and then pointed to the chair next to me. I sit and wait, done, she sits with her pen and notepad. "How are you feeling?" She asked me.

I look her in the eyes, then at window. "It's raining, and not the nice kind. Nope, it's cold an sad looking." I say looking at my cote and tugging it a little. "That's why I'm wearing this." I say looking back up at her.

"You didn't answer me. How are you feeling?" My doctor asked once again.

Now it's true I have changed a lot from being in here. I probably matured a large amount, but I'm still not the person I want to be.

"I want to change, and I know I have to strive for that. I want to become better, more intelligent." I look up while I say this, I am in a weird mood. "That is how I'm feeling."

She tilted her head, and raised her eyebrows. "So sad?"

I blinked and shook my head, "No, no no not particularly. Like, different. I don't know, I'm in a funky mood." I say shrugging.

"Well funky can be good, room to grow."

"You say that every time." I look over at the clock. "It's almost time to leave. I'm nervous."

She shakes her head and flipped her note pad closed, and lays it and the pen down. "I think you're ready. Go get your things and meet me in the front room." Dr.Welisam says leaving the room, and me alone.

I slid my hands down the chairs arms, and pushed myself up. I walked back to my room and grabbed my bag.

The room was empty, and cold. I blinked and closed the door. She was waiting for me, talking to the secretary. I saw a car waiting outside, not one I recognized.

Dr.Welisam looked over at me,"Are you ready?" I smiled and shook my head yes. Doc made a gesture to the car. A huge smile appeared on my face. Jace walked out of the car and through the doors. I dropped my luggage and ran to him. I jump up and gave him a huge hug. Jace has only came to see my that one time, James said it was to hard to see me in here.

Tears came down my eyes, and his arms trembled. "Willow, I am so sorry." He spoke in a whisper. I said nothing back.

We finally got me checked out. I sat in the car and closed my eyes.