A Hearts Day Off

Part 18

Cameron gets up and checks on the car but it doesn't take long for him to call Ferris in.  I walk into the garage with everyone else and see Cameron looking into the car and I begin to get worried by the look on his face. 

"The miles aren't coming off, the miles aren't coming off going in reverse" I follow Ferris and look at the odometer. It has gone down by barely anything. I look up at Cameron and see how frustrated he is.

"Huh, I thought that would be a problem, we'll just have to crack open the odometer and turn it back by hand" the idea is great but looking at Cameron... he strongly disagrees. 

"No, forget it" Cameron makes my eyes go wide. He always says no in a panic... but this is... this is different. We all look up at him like he is crazy. "I gotta take a stand" I bring a hand to my much and turn away from the group. "I'm bullshit, I put up with everything, my old man pushes me around" I look back at Cameron and see tears coming out of his eyes. I feel his pain. I can't relate but I can feel his pain. Seeing him cry makes me cry. Seeing him mad makes me mad. "I never say anything!" He yells out banging his chest. Ferris looks at me and walks over. He wraps an arm around me and puts a hand on my face pulling me into his chest. "Well, he's not the problem I'm the problem" Cameron please stop. You're not. It's him who's the ass. It's him who's the piece shit that doesn't know how lucky he is to have you as a son... to have a man like you in his life! He leans over and places to hands on the front of the hood to support himself. "I gotta take a stand, I gotta take a stand against him, I am not going to sit on my ass, as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life, gonna take a stand" Cameron... I  know what you're thinking... I love you... I am proud of you... but you're going to get yourself killed! I can't lose you! I won't lose you! But... I won't let you die alone... no way... You die... I 'm going to die with you... they'll have to barry us together because I am not letting you go! "I'm gonna defend it, right or wrong I am gonna defend it" He pushes himself up and stands up straight. I push myself away from Ferris and slowly walk over to Cameron... he doesn't even look at me before he puts his heal into the front of the car. It makes me jump and it makes me scared. I want to cry out but I can't I am frozen. I just sit there with thears sliding down my face looking at him get his pain out. I am so proud of him but I wish it didn't have to happen like this... or at all. He doesn't deserve this shit. He doesn't deserve any of what he goes through. I would sell my soul to the devil if it meant that he could be happy.

"Cameron! Please!" I finally cry out but he doesn't even look at me. He goes in for another kick but he doesn't he stops himself. He looks at Ferris and Sloane and then he looks at me. I walk up to him and put a hand on his face and one on his chest. "Please... stop... you're not a piece of shit... you not a bad son... your dad is an asshole who can't see how lucky he is! You don't deserve any of what has happened to you! I would give my life if it meant you could be happy... if it meant you could be at peace." he pauses for a moment before then wrapping his arms around me. I hear him breath normally again it brings me peace. We let go and look at his damage. 

"Shit... dented the shit out of it" He chuckles at himself while Sloane and Ferris are in pure shock. "Good, my father will come home see what I did, I can't hid e this. He'll come home, see what I did, he'll have to deal with me.  I don't care, I really don't. I'm just tired of being afraid" He pushes me in front of him and puts a hand on my upper back and one hand on my lower back. "I can't wait to see the look on the bastards face" He says making me smile and the leaning over and kissing me with so much passion. I kiss him back and I put both my hand son his neck. We slowly lean back and rest up against the hood of the car... but then we quickly find ourselves on the floor...

Cameron and helps me up to my feet and we look at the pure white faces of my brother and Sloane. We get up and walk over and to our shock horror, there is a car down below his house.

"Woah! Holy shit!" Cameron cries out but he doesn't sound mad... he just sounds... in shock. I don't exactly know what to do other than place a hand on his shoulder. Cameron walks away from us and I look at Ferris. I would love to see him come up with an excuse for this one.

"Cameron it's my fault!" Ferris says and I feel like my world turns upside down. I never thought I would hear him confess to something like this... but... is it really his fault. "I'll take the heat, we'll wait for your father to come home and when he gets here I'll tell him I did it. He hates me anyway" Today... has really changed all of us... never in my life did I think I would hear Ferris say something like that... never in my life would I think Ferris would try to take the blame for Cameron instead of actually blaming Cameron. There is silence and I look back and forth between the boys.

"No, I'll take it," Cameron says and both Ferris and I shake our heads. "No I'll take it" The boys are bickering like one of them is paying for dinner.

"No, you don't want this much heat" Ferris is trying so hard to be the better person for once and it's not working out for him.

"I want, if I didn't want it I would have let you take the car out this morning" What's happened to Cameron? I mean... this isn't the Cameron I fell in love with all those years ago... but... in a way... it is... either way... i still love him.

"I made you take the car out this morning"

"I could have stopped ya, it is possible to stop Mr. Ferris Beuller you know. No, I want it I'm gonna take it, when Morris comes home... him and I will just have a little chat" I smile at Cameron and walk up to him... wrapping my arms around him sharing a tight embrace.

"I love you" He says in my ear and I pull away from him and look him in the eyes.

"I love you too"

We look at the others and smile.

"It's cool, no it's gonna be good... thanks anyays" I lean into him just feeling.... proud...

Today... was a good day. Today was the best day. I don't know what will top this. I know that next year will be hard... the year after that will be even harder... but that won't change... how I feel. ALmsot my whole life my heart has been hard work dealing with my feelings for Cameorn... today... my heart got a day off... and it's the best thing ever.