dreamnotfound one shots

numb.

this one is kinda dark, but has a happy ending :)

[TRIGGER WARNING]: depression, mentions of suicide.

if you or  someone you know are having suicidal thoughts, here are some resources you can look into:

https://www.suicidestop.com/call_a_hotline.html

^ this website lists suicide hotline numbers for each country :)

https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/suicide-resource-guide#1

^ this website lists other useful resources :)

stay safe, cuties. you're worth it.

-n <3

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GeorgeNootFound tweeted:

hello guys :) i'm going to be taking a bit of a break. it'll only be for a couple days, i promise, i just need some time to take care of myself. noot noot :)

that was tweeted three weeks ago. george's original plan was to just take a couple days to himself, like he's done in the past, but he's never felt this numb before. he's spent the last three weeks in bed, only getting up to go to the bathroom and to eat. his sink was overflowing with bowls from the countless times he has made ramen noodles. he was slowly losing the motivation to eat and take care of himself. he already hasn't showered in a week, and the past few nights he decided he was too tired to brush his teeth. he's too drained to care about anything.

george stared out his bedroom window, watching the rain droplets slide down the glass. if the idea of moving wasn't so exhausting, he would move to the couch to watch tv. he just wanted to stay in bed forever and forget about existing.

he didn't want to exist. he wasn't doing anything worthwhile. and besides, even if he did upload a video or stream right now, people would be mad at him for being away so long. he didn't want to feel guilty for coming back after a long time, so the easiest thing to do in his mind is to just never go back.

george was about to fall asleep while watching the rain when he received a text from his mom.

Mum:

Hello sweetheart. Just checking in. Are you able to make it to dinner on Sunday?

george typed out a quick reply:

i'm doing good, mum :) i'm pretty busy this week, but maybe next week?

george has been pushing off dinner with his mom for a couple weeks. he doesn't want to see her in person, because he knows that she will immediately know something is up. he doesn't want her to worry about him, she is already stressed enough with starting a new job, and he didn't want her to be more stressed just because he's having a hard time.

Mum:

Okay sweetie. Don't overwork yourself. Love you❤️

george replied with a "❤️" and shoved his phone under his pillow. he knew he had multiple unread texts from dream, sapnap, and bad, asking if he was okay, but he felt it was easier to ignore them. maybe if he ignores them, they'll forget about him. so he won't have to feel guilty for ignoring them for so long.