To Love Or To Be Loved

The Car Ride

Conan's POV

"So,are you going to tell me why you're still with that clown?"Connor asks. "Because I'm attracted to her?" Connor rolls his eyes. "You really think I'm that dumb? I know you're as straight as a fucking circle," Connor says. "Why does it matter who I'm with?! I'm happy,she's happy so why does it matter?" I know I shouldn't be mad at my brother but truth is I've been asking that question to myself for months.

"Look Conan, I know you don't want anyone to know that you're gay,but what's the worse thing that could happen?" "I don't know, I could loose my job, I could fucking die,I could loose my whole fucking family!"

"Conan, you know our whole family are the most supportive people you know. So what's the big deal? "I'm just not ready,okay?"

I don't know why I'm getting so defensive about this. I know my family would support me but what about society?

I'm 25 years old for Christ sakes! Why can't I just come out yet?!

"Look little brother, you know I love you,right?" I nod. "You know our friends and family love you,right?" I nod too embarrassed to say anything because I shouldn't have to be reminded by my brother that my whole family will support me.

He pauses for a moment, "then fuck society!" I was dumbfounded. How does he know? Well he's my brother but still. "I know you don't want to come out because you're too worried about what other people will say but you need to worry about yourself!" My brother gives me a sympathetic look, "I love you,little brother," he says with a smile. "I love you too,big brother," I say smiling back. How did I get so lucky having a brother like him? I don't deserve him.

"Anywaaaaays, tell me about the case," I say. "Well they didn't tell me much,but here's what I've gotten from them so far, so a man and a woman,they might be married,were found strung up to the ceiling by their limbs. They said they were both shot in the chest twice," he says with some kind of worry in his voice. "Good god!" "Yeah, I know."

"Are you okay?" I asked worried. "I'm fine," he says with no emotion in his voice. Before I could persist,we pull up to the crime scene. "You ready?" I ask. "Ready," he says with confidence.

A/N
Hey guys! I hope this wasn't too boring for you and umm yeah! I hope you enjoyed his chapter and maybe enough that you vote for it. And criticism is welcome so yeah that's all I have to say. Bye lovely's ❤️⭕️

PS, another chapter might be out tomorrow. Soooo yeah