The Hurt

Chapter 1

Today is my first day of work at the Atlanta Midtown Hospital as a resident. I lived here not too long ago. Then life happened and I ran away from my problems. Instead I went to medical school and did my internship in New York city. I realized something was missing in my life and thought it was time to come back and face my problems head on. I also just really miss my family. So here I am at my new job starting over not exactly in a new town. Well i have been gone for 5  years so it might as well be.  

"Jake?" I whisper to my self. As i am walking into the hospital i see a man i use to know. I knew at some point I would have to face him but I didn't think it would be now. Jake was one of those problems I ran from. When we meet, Jake Riley was the one who would run. He was the bad boy with a temper but once you got to know him you could see how big his heart was. When he asked me out the first time I was scared he would hurt me. I held up walls because I was so scared of being hurt but I realized at some point I had to start living. I ended up going on the date with him and it was the best first date i had ever been on. We got along so well it felt like i had known him my whole life. He ended up never hurting me instead he loved me and I loved him. Even thought he gave me not reason to believe so, I was scared that he could not change not even for me. I would always tell him my worries but he always assured me he wouldn't run. We were fine until the day he asked me to marry him. That day Jake did not run i did.

It isn't like I did not want to marry him I just was scared. For years growing up I watched my mom and dads relationship. I know every relationship has it's problems but theirs were different. My dad was very emotionally abusive to her. I saw him make her feel like crap almost everyday. It was like everything was her fault and he was perfect in every way. Watching them has made me scared of get married. I don't want to spend the rest of my life like that. Before Jake I never had a serious relationship I was so scared of being like my mom. 

Even though I had just saw Jake I need to check in for my first day. I walk up to the counter so I can see if anyone can help me. 

"Hello, um where do I go if it's my first day here as a resident" This older lady behind the counter gives me the dirtiest look and makes a loud sigh.

"I don't know why I always have to help doctors find their way around here. You will need to speak to Victor Cannerts he's on the third floor room 308" she says with an attitude.

"I'm sorry for bothering you thanks anyways" i say and walk off. I hope everyone isn't that rude here. I walk to the elevator and push the up button. As I'm standing there i can feel someone walking up next to me. I'm afraid it was Jake so I didn't look over right away. We stand there for a moment and then the elevator door opens up. I walk in and turn around to see it isn't Jake. At first I'm relieved but then I'm kinda sad it isn't him. I push 3 and stand back in disappointment. I don't want the awkwardness and confusion that will come from seeing Jake but I miss him so much.

When the elevator gets to the third floor I get off and I see mayhem. There are people in hazmat suits walking around in rooms with glass windows. I see two patients, one looks worse than the other one. I am in so much shock of what I see. They look really sick and have blood coming out of their nose. Well walking around I pump into this guy with a doctors mask on.

"Oh I'm sorry" I say.

 He seems scared. I'm so confused on what's going on. I just keep walking looking for room 308. I finally make it to Cannerts room. The door to his office is open, but he isn't there.

"Who are you, why are you in this office?" someone says.

"I'm looking for Dr. Cannerts. It's my first day as a resident"

"He is talking with the CDC right now" she says while walking away. I keep on walking around the corner when I see Jake talking to a doctor. I look closer at the doctors name tag and it says Dr. Cannerts. I have finally found him.

"Who are you" Dr. Cannerts says with a confused look.

"Her name is Kaylee Wilson" he reply's will look down at he's feet.

I walk up to Dr. Cannerts with my hand out to give him a hand shake "Hello nice to meet you I'm the new resistant"

"Stop! We can't touch and stay 6 feet away!" He says with concern. I'm so confused with what's going on. It's awkward for a while and no one says anything.

"Well Miss Wilson this is a bad day to start here. We had one of our doctors get sick. Then when we examined her we realized it was a virus we have never seen before. This man in the room behind us this officer brought in, which it seems you know each other. He is what we believe to have been patient zero. The disease is highly contagious and very deadly."

"What do you need me to do? When i was in New York we had a case of Ebola actually and i was the intern they put on the case to help."

"We could use all the help we can get honestly. Jake can help you with the task actually. We need you to help calm down the people in the hospital. Go floor by floor and just make sure they know that we have everything covered and that we are sending them to another hospital."

My heart dropped as soon as he said Jake could help me. I have not seen him in years and here i am stock in this hospital with him for who knows how long. I am not ready to have the conversation with him that we need to have.

"Okay I think i can handle that. " I look at Jake and he gives me a node. Walking next to him feels almost like i am home. He looks good but then again Jake Riley always looks good especially when he is in his uniform. This is not the time to be thinking about us though. I need to push my own personal issues to the side for today to make sure the patients and the visitors in this hospital are safe.

"So when did you get back in town? I stay in tough with your mom still and she did not tell me you were coming back?" He has not expression on his face but I can tell that he is hurt just by his voice.

"I did not tell anyone I was coming back I wanted it to be a surprise after I settled in" I look away and just try to avoid eye contact with him. My stomach is twisted up in the biggest knot. I get anxiety in situations that I do not know what is going to happen. I can not control how Jake feels. If I was him I would be angry at me. So angry I could not even be around me. However, here he is walking with me to make sure people are okay.

"Oh" is all he says. I wish he had found out I was back in a better way. I had a detailed plan on how I was going to tell everyone. I know I hurt people by just packing up and leaving without telling anyone, and I wanted to make it right. 

"We should start on the pediatric ward first. Sick kid's parents always freak out the worst when they do not know what is going on." He just acknowledges me and we keep walking. We get to the elevator and we both go to touch the up button at the same time. Our hands almost touch but we both pull away before they do. Jake ends up being the one to push it. The trip up to the pediatric floor is so awkward. You could break the tension with a knife. The elevator reaches the floor and we both get off it. As soon as we do Jake pulls me to the side.

"Hey first off i want you to know I do not hold any bad feelings towards you for leaving. I should have listened to you all those times you told me you were scared. I also want to tell you something before you hear it from someone else. I am engaged." My heart hits the floor.