The Hurt

Chapter 3

"How is Lex?" Lex is Jake's best friend. They are both cops. Technically Lex is his boss but honestly they act more like partners. 

"Good." I want to be able to talk to him. I want to know if his fiance is on this side of the containment or not. I know my parents are so at the moment Jake is the only person i have. There was a time when we told each other everthing. 

*Flashback*

"Hey babe" Jake walks in while i am cooking lunch. He just got back from playing basketball with his work friends. I can smell him as soon as he walks through the door. I do not mind though because he still looks so good.

"Have fun?" He is now sitting at the table waiting for his lunch I have cooked. I cooked his favorite which is grilled cheese. I felt bad since I was asleep this morning when he left. He always kisses me goodbye before he leaves to go anywhere.

"I did. Me and Lex destroyed the other boys on the court." Then he pauses for a moment and looks down at the floor. "I meant to bring this up before I left but you looked so peaceful."

"Whats wrong? Did something happen yesterday?" I am so nervous. I have never seen Jake look so sad.

"I found an old letter you had wrote yourself. It really hurt me to read it and i think we need to talk about it."

Letter read:

*"Dear future self,

I hope you grow up to love yourself. My worst fear is that you are reading this right now in an emotionally abusive relationship just like your mom. She is strong for what she has to deal with. I know she still is with him because she loves him and wants the best for you. However, that is not the life I want for myself. I do not want someone to bring me down for every little thing. I do not want someone to make me feel dumb every chance they have just to make themselves feel better. I love my dad I do but if my mom walks out that door today I am with her 100 percent."*

"I am so sorry to have read this very personal letter. It just all makes sense why it took so long for you to open up. I want you to know I am not your father. I am me and after a year I hope you see that. If i ever make you feel less about yourself you need to let me know." At this point i am in tears. I have never told anyone about my parents. It feels like this weight has been lifted off my shoulders now that he knows. I never knew how to explain what I was going through. At this point I not say anything because everything that needed to be said has. I hug Jake and stay in his arms. They always feel like home. 

*End flashback*

"So I guess you are going home to your fiance?" 

"Nope you guess wrong she is on the other side." He walks away from me without another word.  

Now that my first day is over I do not know what to do. My family live outside the quarantine area so it looks like i will be staying the night at the hospital. The only person i know on this side hates me pretty much. Unless Jana is on this side because if i remember right her office is on this side. She is dating Lex unless things have changed since i left. We were close when I was here and I stayed in touch without while in New York. She did happen to forget to tell me that Jake was seeing some. 

"Hey can you come help me" hearing Dr. Cannerts snaps me out of my thought. 

"Yep that is my job I guess" I regret saying that to my boss of all people. He just shakes his head yes and we walk into the hall way full of the patients with the disease.

"I need you to help take care of the patients in these rooms from now on. You will bring them food if they can eat. You will take their blood work and give them medicine that might help with the pain."

Well I guess this is my life now. I really hope the CDC and Dr. Cannerts can figure this out really fast so i can see my family. I put on the hazmat suit on and get the blood work kit. I walk into one of the rooms.The patient in this room is an older woman. She does not look as bad as the other people yet but she is spitting out a little blood.

"Hey I am just going to take a quick blood sample from you" she shakes her head in agreement and i get out the rubber band to tie around her arm. 

"Am I going to die? I have been here for an hour and already seen them drag two bodies out of the other rooms. I know I am old and should not care but I am not ready." Her saying this makes me shiver. This disease is killing everyone so far. I do not want to die either but we are stuck in this containment area with this contagious disease. Death in here is the most likely thing to happen. 

"Ma'am we will know more after I get this blood sample and we can run some test." I try to say it with the best bed side manner I have. I finally get the blood from the woman and walk out the room. As soon as I do they told me to wash the tube the blood is in really well. Then i can take the suit and gloves off. I do not even know what to think at this point. I am on my way to take the sample to the lab when I walk by the furnace room and see Jake. I stop just to watch him for a moment. He is taking the belongings of the deceased bodies and putting them in separate bags. Then i see him put the bodies in the fire. I could not even imagine what he is going through. 

"There you are you really need to get that blood up to the lab now." Dr. Cannerts is right behind me staring at me. I look back over at Jake who looks back for a moment and then looks right back to what he is doing. 

Best decision I have ever made was to move back...

I get to the lab and hand the work the blood.

"Hey! I do not think we have meet my name is Ari Louis. What is your name." This lab tech is very bubbly kinda like me.

"Hey, my name is Kaylee Wilson!" She is the first person all day to actually ask me my name and seem to want to get to know me. "So I have no one on this side could we be friends? I know that is weird for a grown adult to ask but I am kinda lacking on friends at the moment."

"Yes! Of course we can be friend. My husband and kid is on the other side and I am scared as heck. I am still trying to keep a positive look on things." 

The first positive thing to happen all day. I cannot wait for tomorrow.