Snowflake /Pjm jjk

❄️ Part Fourty Six

17th September 2020
Victoria Pov

"Ahh" I groan while waking up, I really didn't sleep well last night since I slept in my chair because I was checking up on Jungkook all the time as I felt worried that he was in pain but he slept like the baby he is.

I walk into the kitchen to check the fridge if there is any food I can use to make some breakfast, but I groan louder when I didn't find anything good to use.

"Seriously?" I groan irritated to myself while massage my hurting neck.

I grab my car keys and drive down to the Café to buy some breakfast for both me and Jungkook.

I walk inside the house with some bags in my hands, I take out the food from the bags and laid it on a plate with banana milk on the side well aware that it is Jungkook's favourite, I knock on his door but he didn't answer.

"Jungkook?" I ask as I peek inside but he is nowhere to be found and even though I understand why he have left it still hurts a little that he didn't even say goodbye.

I walk back down feeling disappointed and put the food away in the fridge as I feel my appetite is missing as well.

I walk back upstairs and threw my self on the bed feeling the need for some extra sleep.

"Victoria?"
I groan as I itching my eyes from the to light sunlight that is meeting my eyes as I open them.

"Jungkook, I thought that you had left?" I yawn as I push my self to sit up, jungkook gives me a shy smile.

"No, I just went out for walk" he sighs and I nod my head.

"There is food for you in the fridge" I said before standing up but his hand grabs mine pulling me back down again.

"I'm not hungry" he answer with a serious face, I nod my head looking at him.

"Thank you for taking care of me last night" he said looking down on his feet.

"Don't worry about it" I smile.

"Well - I should get going then" he said as he stands up, one part of me didn't want him to leave because I really miss having him around.

I only reply by nodding my head not finding the words, we stare at each other not knowing what so say even though the both of us probably want to say so much more.

"I'm sorry" I blurted out breaking the silence.

"Don't be" he said cupping my cheeks.

"You and Jimin have a past together and I am sorry that I thought your feelings for me was stronger than that" he said coldly which made my heart clench.

"Jungkook"

"Don't Victoria, I would had stand by your side while you had found out your feelings, but you lost me the second you slept with him" He spat and my heart breaks hearing him say that.

"Why did you even bother to come?" I snap back at him, his eyes turns darker and the way he is looking at me really gives me the chills.

"I just wanted to be around you for one last time" he chuckles while shaking his head trying to hold back his sobs, I nod my head again as I feel tears is starting to build up inside of me.

"I know I made a mistake but so did you, it's not fair that you blame me for everything" I whisper while tears finally run down my eyes.

"I am not blaming you, Victoria! I just can't forgive you for sleeping with him" he said calmly while he tries to cup my cheeks but I move away.

"I never would have asked you to either" I cried, he looks at me with disbelief.

"What?" He ask with furrowed eyebrows.

"If I cant forgive my self I can't expect you to forgive me" I sobbed, his eyes soften up and I can see he wants to comfort me but I didn't want him to.

"Victoria"
"Don't Jungkook. We can't keep doing this" I said between sobs.

"Victoria, just listen to me" he raised his voice.

"Just go! Please!" I begged as I felt the guilt inside of me is eating me up alive and it made me panic.

"Vic-"
"You want to leave so just leave then!" I said cutting him off with tears running down my eyes.

"I'm not gonna leave you alone like this" he whisper while he try to cup my cheeks again but I push his hands away.

"I can't take this anymore" I breathed out as I felt I was gonna have a panic attack from the pain, Jungkook looks as me with sad eyes.

"I need this pain to stop, I can't take it" I panicked and Jungkook pulls me into his embrace.

"Breathe princess" he whispered in my ear trying to calm me down.

"I am so sorry" I cried breaking down into his arms, he hushed me and tries his best to comfort me.

"I know, I know" he repeated while he hugs me tighter.

"I can't do this anymore, whatever I do one of you gets hurt either way" I break down.

"Can you ever forgive me?" I ask and I hear him sigh, I push my body out from his and look at him in the eyes and his eyes told me that he can't.

"Maybe it is for the best that you leave" I whisper as I tried to hold back my sobs, he looks at me with pleading eyes.

"I don't want to" I mumbles as some tears run down his eyes as well.

"You can't forgive me Jungkook, there is no point for you to stay" I breathed out feeling my heart break into pieces.

He stare at me dumbfounded before turning around and leaves.
I break down crying right away because I really wanted him to stay.