Snowflake /Pjm jjk

❄️Part fifthteen

8th June 2020
(Jungkook's pov)

I couldn't stop thinking about her. It's been a week since I left Busan and being back here makes everything harder and I haven't seen Jimin yet, because he's probably busy with other stuff.

"Jungkook"
I turned around and see Taehyung smiling while walking over to me.

"I haven't seen you for a long time, how did it go in Busan?" He ask me before giving me a big hug.

I felt guilt eat me alive and I can't describe how much I want to tell him about her.
He's mine friend too, but I can't .
He won't understand, or will he?

"Good! Finally I got to spend some time with my family" I said smiling at him.

Jin suddenly came through the door and his eyes widen of the sight of Taehyung.
"Tae, you are back! How was Norway?" He ask while taking a seat down beside me.

"Cold! I don't understand how people can live there" Tae reply which made us laugh.
"But at least I finally got to wear my Gucci jacket!" Tae chuckles.

"It is great having all of you guys back again, I have been lonely here without you" Jin pouts
as he put a hand on my shoulder.

"I have to go back to Busan again" I said which made them look at me in disbelief.

"Why? You suddenly got home sick?" Tae ask with a teasing voice.

"Haven't you seen it?" Jin laughed as he pulls out his phone and my eyes widen because didn't know what he was talking about.

"Jungkook have found a reason to stay in Busan lately" he said as he shows Tae a selfie I had published online. Tae eyes widen and looks at me with a shocked expression.

"Wow kookie! Our little boy have finally grown up" Tae teases me while ruffling my hair with his hand.

I took Jin's phone away from him and look at the picture, my heart starts to beat faster when I saw the purple mark on my neck, and you can easily tell it is a hickey.

"Who is she?" Tae ask pushing me a little with a smug smile on his face as Jin laughed.
"are you blushing Jungkook?" Jin teases.

Yes indeed I was, I felt my cheeks heat up and sweat starts to form on my forehead.

"Tell us about her kookie" Tae mocks which made me sweat even more and I felt sick to my stomach.

"What's going on here?"
The voice startles me and my breathing stops right away as I knew immediately who it was.

"Jimin, you have to see this" Jin said making his way towards me to take back his phone.
I delete the picture from his phone before he could take it away.

"Stop it Jin!" I said with a stern voice, Tae and Jin eyes widen and they just look at each other not knowing why I reacted that way.

"What's going on Jungkook? Jimin said making his way to me, I felt my eyes tearing up while guilt hitting me like a slap in the face.

"I have to go" I mumbles, I walk out leaving them all dumbfounded by my behaviour.

I throw myself down on the bed, feeling the tears run down my cheeks and I can't stop feeling guilty, and I want nothing more then to make this feeling stop.

I hear a knock on the door and felt my bed move down a little signalling that someone is sitting on the edge of it.

"I'm sorry Jungkook. We was just joking around. What's going on with you?" Jin ask with a low voice feeling bad for his actions.

I know I always can count on him, he's like a big brother to me, and I really need to get this of my chest.

"I'm in love, Jin" I blurted out with my face buried in the pillow.

"What? That's great!" Jin reply, and I can hear his happiness in the tone of his voice, he always wants the best for me.

"No it isn't" I finally stood up and look at him, I move around so I can make him space to sit next to me on the bed.
He's eyes sadden from my words, and sat down beside me before looking at me with a big question mark on his face.

"it's her" I said looking down on my hands.

"Who?" He replied clearly not understanding.
I look up at him meeting his gaze

"Her" I scoffed.
His eyes becomes round and he gasp in shock when he finally understands who I was talking about, but it's clear that he didn't see that coming, but as the good friend he is he still stays put to hear me out.

"When I saw her at the airport I couldn't get my thought away from her and when Jimin told me about her something in me felt hurt.
I wanted to help him with a good intention first, and when my guy told me he found her here in Seoul all I wanted was to check before telling him, because I knew it would break his heart if it wasn't her, but then I felt something as I talked to her and I even went to Busan knowing she lived there.
I have spent these past weeks being with her. Jin, I'm hopelessly in love with her" I truthfully say, Jin studies my face hoping to find something that is indicating that I am joking around.

When he gave up and accepted the truth his eyes immediately saddens and his eyes told me that he was disappointed.

"How could you do that Jungkook?" He gulps.

"I know I have messed up badly, but I can't control my feelings. I really have fallen in love with her, and I think she have fallen in love with me too" I explain and Jin eyes widened
again because he had totally forgot about her feelings in all of this.

"Are you going to tell him?" He ask throwing his head back at the bed looking really frustrated from my dealing situation.

"I can't, I really want to tell her the truth first" I reply as I feel my eyes tearing up again.

Jin sees this and gives me a unexpected hug.
"I know you fucked up Jungkook, everyone makes mistakes, it's what you do after it that's counting" he said and I broke the hug in disbelief.

"Is that it? You are not going to scold me? You're not going to tell Jimin?" I ranted and Jin chuckles while shaking his head.

"Everyone makes mistakes and I know you, Jungkook. I know you didn't do this to hurt people, I know your probably are beating yourself up and you don't need me to do it as well" he explains while laughing.
"And if she wants you, that's her choice. We can't force her to meet up with Jimin only because he wants to" he continues and my heart stops at that.

"But she thinks his dead, and I haven't told her that he isn't" I stated as I put my hands on my head hoping it would hide me a little well aware of that the scolding will come after this.

"YOU WHAT?" He screams.
"How could you not tell her the truth? She thinks he's dead? Why? Did you tell her that? Jeon Jungkook I'm so disappointed in you. How could you take advantage from a girl like that? Didn't I raise you right?" He screamed while throwing his hands around in the air looking like a crazy person.

"I didn't tell her that he's dead, but I didn't tell her that he isa actually alive either" I whine as I felt more guilty saying it out loud, he slap my head, not to hard to really hurt me but hard enough to make me say ouch.

"Stupid boy" he sighs loudly.
"I always knew you have to much hormones for a teenage boy, but I never though you'll be this stupid" he scoffs.

I couldn't stop myself from smiling, because even though I knew that he was mad at me, he still always had my back.
Just like a big brother.