Atelophobia || Graser10 // discontinued

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(A/N I took out the smut in this because I read it over and nope nope nope nope.)

The ride home was quiet, none of is wanting to break the silence, just the soft hum of our playlist ringing through the speakers.

When we finally got home, I decided to speak. "Baby." I said after getting settled and turned to him on the bed. I motioned him to sit down next to me and he obliged. "I'm proud of you." I stated as I held his hand and scooted closer. "I'm really proud and I love you so much."

"I love you too... I honestly don't know what I would do without you. He let out a soft chuckle. " I don't even know if I would be here without you.. I hate myself so much- really..." I looked at him with soft eyes and placed one hand on his cheek. "Did- did you know that I really liked you even when you were dating Liam?"

I smiled weakly as I played with his light brown hair. "Yeah... if I'm being 100% honest here, so did I. I really just was in denial. Liam is a nice guy, but he wasn't my type."

"You were my only reason to wake up in he morning. And the day you told me that you were moving here... That was the day I... I kinda... I was planning on killing myself." He admitted.

"Wait... Y-you what?" I stuttered, not believing it, this was new news to me.

"Y-yeah..." I stuttered. "I didn't want to tell you this, you know, I didn't want you to think that I was some freak or something. I was feeling worthless, I was reading hate comments and tweets, and memories of back when I was younger started to flood into my mind." I could see a tear starting to form in his eyes as he continued. "But when you called me up on skype, I knew I had to stay alive, for you. You Sage, were quite literally, but savior. And still are."

"Zach..." I responded, wiping away one of his tears with my thumb. A tear started to roll down my cheek also as I leaned in to kiss him. "You were my savior too. I love you so much."

Our lips meet as he grips my waist gently, my own arms wrapping around his neck. He bites down ever-so-slightly on my bottom lip and flips me over, so that he was, yet again, dominant over me. This was all too familiar, things would get heated, but either something would interrupt us, or he wouldn't be ready. Zach wasn't experienced in this department, I was his first ever girlfriend, and I've already been in multiple relationships before him, and have had sex a few times, none of them meaning anything to me. He pressed kisses down my face, to my jawline, and then to my neck. It did tickle, but the pleasure of him sucking on my sweet spot overtook every other emotion. I knew there would be bruises the next day, although I was too worried on where this could be going next.

"Zach..." I let out a breathy whisper, I was already aroused and I could tell that he was in that process. "Do you really want to do this? Now?"

He nodded quickly in reply, pulling off his dark blue sweater in one swift movement, his pants following shortly after, leaving him in only his boxer shorts.

I took off my black skinny jeans with my grey sweater and threw them to the ground, not caring that it would probably make a mess and I would have to clean it up later.

[the frickle frackle] no stop no smut for you

"I love you so much Zach." I whispered.

"I love you too Sage." he responded, pulling me close to so he could cuddle me as I relaxed and realized that we should do this more often.

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