To The Stars | JJK

Chapter 24.

Grace

I say goodbye to Mike and listen to him tell me to cut him out of my life for good.

I plan to follow his advice to the tee. I'm not giving him any part of myself again.

The flight feels like forever. I rethink how I'm going to tell this to Ali and Becky. Hell, how am I going to come to terms with it myself?

I want them to comfort me, but I'm also glad that I can have the ride home to think.

They know I'm coming home today, but they probably don't know what has happened, not unless Jungkook told them. But I don't think he did. 

My heart sinks when the car starts nearing my home.

I can't be alone right now, I can't.

"Can you please drop me off at 23 Clarke street," I say to the driver.

He makes a left turn instead of a right one.

I take my suitcase out of the trunk and look at the house before me.

The reality of the situation is starting to set in. In Boston I could pretend it would all be fine when I got home.

And now I'm here and everything is far from fine.

I ring the bell, although I know the door's unlocked. It always is.

Jin opens the door with a smile which fades immediately when he sees my face.

"Baby-doll," his tone is gentle, he's almost whispering. I guess he was with Jungkook when it happened.

He takes my suitcase inside and leaves it in the hallway.

Without a word out of me he just says, "He's in his room."

I gave him a thankful nod, because he doesn't pry and I head towards the stairs.

Judging by the way Jin looked at me, full of surprise to see me here, I'm guessing nobody expected me to go anywhere but home.

I reach Jungkook's door, I can hear soft music from behind the door and I knock.

"Come in," his voice sounds like he thinks one of his roommates is about to walk in.

I open the door and I don't know if I'll be able to hold in my tears anymore. I've been trying all day.

Jungkook is sitting on his bed and looks up from behind his computer.

The seconds he sees me his eyes fill with so much emotion I can barely look at them. 

He gets up from the bed, not breaking eye contact.

I'm going to break.

Then he whispers, "baby," like his heart is breaking just seeing me like this.

I run into his open arms and bury myself into his chest.

I can feel his strong arms curl around me and his tense breaths. 

He's holding me so tight, like I'm going to collapse. 

I swallow a sniffle, but Jungkook hears it and pulls me even closer. He whispers into my ear, "I'm so sorry," his voice cracking.

I bring my hands from around his back, up his body and wrap them around his neck.

I take in everything while silent tears run down my cheeks.

How his strong hands are holding me like he's never letting go.

How his breath warms my right ear every time he exhales into my hair.