Destined...?

1. A promise turned into marriage

Gulf's POV

The breeze  is flowing from the window. Even though I'm shivering from cold, I have to bear it. Watching the moon is my inspiration for writing poetry. But today the beautiful crescent moon in the dark night seems like its laughing on me on my situation. Thoughts are overlapping and talks are colliding in my mind. asking myself-

"Am I destined to this marriage?"

After a moment of deep breath I answered to my selfmade question-

"No,  never. I don't believe in fate,  people say that 'marriages are made in heaven'. Mine....!  Mine is not preordained  (fated) but it's predetermined marriage."

I haven't expected this from my life. Being the only child to my parents, my Dad  raised me with all comforts. I never heard 'no' from him for whatever I liked to do. When I lost my mom at childhood, he became both my mom n dad. Taking care of me and establishing a series of hotels from a small restaurant was not a easy journey for him. My Dad is my role model. People always say that I'm replica of my dad. I'm as stubborn as him. We both can't back step from what we want. But one day came when we stood against each other.

(flashback....)
That was the day when I introduced  love of my life Tin to dad. I never knew why dad hated my lover and ordered me to leave him. But I had chosen to accompany Tin, my one and only love, thinking that dad will forgive me one day because he loves me more than our disagreements. So I left my home.

   While I was waiting for Tin in the airport, we were about to leave the country, my phone rang. It was an emergency call from the Manager of our hotel, that dad had a severe heart attack and was in ICU.
I suddenly felt doomed,  somehow I managed to  rushed to the hospital. After seeing my dad in ICU bed I was totally broken. I couldn't stop crying. I cursed to myself, "it was all my fault. I'm a bad son. I left no hopes to you dad. I disappointed you.  Forgive me dad. Please come back dad, I can't loose you". 
After watching dad from outside the glass door of ICU, I regretted leaving behind him for the sake of my love. That was the worst night in my life,   I couldn't stop my tears flowing for whole night.
Next morning when dad opened his eyes it was like I got my breath back.  After looking me through glass door, Dad's eyes started tearing. I couldn't stopped myself and ran into the ICU and hugged him tightly. Dad gave a smile and moved his hand on my head and caressed softly. With a deep voice he asked me to promise him. Without a second thought I nod my head. When I looked back into his eyes, I felt, they were not filled with pain but with the worry for me.   Then slowly Dad pointed his index finger towards the door and sigh the Manager of our hotel to come inside. At that moment  I was totally confused and thought, "how come dad is asking promise from me and calling the manager ? what is the connection between my promise and the manager?"

As the Manager entered the room, Dad told him that he is binding me to the marriage with the manager's son. I was totally shaken and unspoken on dad's words. I kept silent because, doctor told me, before Dad woke up, that to keep Dad away from stress and he will be under going heart surgery so we had to keep him calm and happy. So I agreed to Dad's decision and also I was not in a condition to loose my dad and hurt him further with my stupid actions.

The marriage was arranged after dad was discharged from the hospital. He was still recovering from the heart surgery. Many a time I thought of talking to dad about the cancellation of marriage but stopped myself after looking over his health condition.

(Return from flashback)

It been one and half month I have not met Tin. This whole time I tried to contact Tin but he didn't picked my call, I searched him with his friends but failed, he just disappeared. I left many voicemails to him.  But he didn't replied.

'I think he is angry that I choosen my dad over him and cheated on him.  But my heart only knows that I loved him from the bottom of my heart, that's why I gathered courage to leave everything thing and even my dad behind, to be together and forever with him.

Today I married as per my dad's wish,  his happiness is everything to me. I fulfilled his wish. But....

(looking over to the sky) I'm screaming inside my mind
"Why God, why me? Why u have done this to me? What should I do? How can I lead my life with someone who I don't know, whom I don't believe, whom I can't love?"
"No, I can't handle this to the end. My head will explode if I suppress my feeling. Yes, I can't forget my love,  I can't live a dual life, I can't cheat on my lover to keep this marriage and I can't keep d person in darkness to whom  I married few hours ago".

Thoughts were hitting in my mind like bullets from a gun, suddenly I felt my behind a warm comfy blanket was covering my shoulders by the hands with veins , that man was standing close by.  I turned around and faced him, he was tall and handsome,  his deep eyes were staring at me, he smiled. That alluring smile stopped my breath, it took a moment to me to breath back and I uttered,

"P'Mew "
He slowly put his index finger on my lips and said "just call me Mew".

'Is he using those words to make me comfortable?' but his fingers touching my lips and the little space gap between us was discomforting me. Intentionally I took two steps backward  to maintain distance between us.

I saw his facial expressions changed into shock and confusion. But he kept calm.

Before he could say anything I talked to myself 'without giving him any false hopes,  it would be better to be clear'.

Without wasting a moment I looked into his eyes and uttered my first words for the night-

"I need divorce"

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Note:
The cursive  letters used in this context is meant that the person is talking to himself in his mind.

Dear Readers
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