It's me Ari (1D and 5SOS fanfic)

blood?, California, reunited

Ariana's POV

We finally finished dinner and it was awkward eating somewhere fancy with a famous boyband. From the restaurant we drove all the way to the airport. But we got on a private jet or something?! I carefully got on and I took a window seat up front. I felt someone sit next to me, it was Niall, he gave me puppy eyes. "Um, remember what you said um earlier. Can we cuddle now", he asked. I smiled, because he was so adorable. I got up and the jet had already taken off so I was fine. "Just let me change my clothes first", I said. He shook his head and I walked to the back room. I remember that I put my clothes in a carryon. I pulled it out from the storage compartment below the cupboard. I took it out and unzipped it and grabbed my black booty shorts and my nirvana muscle t-shirt. I then gathered up all my hair and put it in a high ponytail. I put on a little more deodorant and a small amount of body spray. Then I grabbed a makeup wipe and cleaned my face. I put on my back ankle socks and went back to Niall. He was already asleep cuddled into a ball. I sat down quietly and lifted the blanket that was on him. I giggled. I carefully picked up my phone that was nearby and took a pic of him sleeping.

'@arianagrande he is so adorbs while he sleeps, just look @niallhoran'

I hit post and my phone immediately blew up with messages....

Wow people are quick to comment. I put my phone down and I looked around and my phone buzzed, I picked it up and it was another comment. I scrolled through and it was all hate

'Ew ur disgusting'

'Ur a slut'

'They probably don't even like u'

'Ha kill urself'

'I bet u tried sleeping with them'

'Ur a pathetic whore'

I turned my phone off and I walked to the bathroom and I closed the door. I know that all the guys are asleep already, so I sat on the counter and cried. I let the tears roll down my face. They're so right, I'm a whore. I am pathetic and disgusting. I... I should kill myself. I wiped my face and I just couldn't stop crying. I reached into the glass holder on the sink and took out a cheap shaver and broke it. I took the blade in my hand. I cried silently. "Because I'm a slut", I muttered. I dug the blade into my.wrist and blood immediately dripped down my arm. "For being a pathetic excuse of a girl", I whispered. I did another cut and dug it deeper. I felt the war liquid collect all over my arm. "They don't like you, just die already", I said to myself. I quickly made four more cuts along my arm. I felt light headed and there was blood all over my arm. I cried and sat there on the counter bleeding out. I tried getting up and I slipped and fell on the floor and I didn't bother to get up and I just layed limp crying like a baby. Why bother to get up, I don't want to live anymore?!

Liams POV

.... I shot up from my seat on the plane. I heard a loud thump and I think it came from the bathroom. I quietly got up and I walked over to the bathroom door and knocked. There was no response, so I tried opening the door. Shit?! There's someone in there. "Hey, who's in there", I said while knocking. I heard nothing, I quietly pressed my ear against the door. I heard whimpering and almost crying. I backed away and I tried jiggling the door, fuck it won't open. I then used all my strength and forced it. I stumbled in and what I saw almost killed me. I rushed to her side, "Ariana are you ok, please answer me", I said worried. I placed my hands around her and I saw blood. "Oh my god, why would you do this. You're loved", I whispered. I held her in my arms. She was half awake and was crying. I used one hand and moved the hair from her sticky face. I rocked her back and forth. She was closing her eyes, "Don't you close your eyes love, stay with me. Please", I whispered into her ear pressing her against my chest. Her breathing got heavy. I looked at her beautiful eyes, they seemed lifeless and beat. She glanced at her arm. And I turned her face back to me, "Don't look at it love, look at me. You need to stay awake, don't close those beautiful eyes", I said. The tears kept rolling down her cheeks. I held her close and I panicked. There was blood everywhere. I reached over and pulled a cloth from the cabinet near me. I placed it against her wrist. I got blood on me in the process, but I didn't care. I am not giving up, her eyes drooped and she stopped shaking, my eyes got wide. "NO, ARIANA, DON'T DO THIS. PLEASE, DON'T LEAVE. DON'T LEAVE ME", I screamed while rocking her and moving her hair from her face. I can't imagine losing this beauty in life, she brings us all a greater hapinessm and I can't lose her. For crying out loud, I love her.... everything stopped, my world stopped spinning and she stopped moving, and I sat there like a stone holding her and I snapped, I thought I could be strong, for her. I felt warm tears fall down my cheeks. I looked down at her, "You can't, you were just so happy not so long ago. You're fine, everything is alright", I stuttered. I cuddled her to me and held her as if I could never hold her again. I just held her close to me, she wasn't moving, or breathing. It was silent. I cried and rocked her body, I kissed her forehead and rubbed her back. She was so lifeless in my lap. I heard more thumping and I felt other people come in, "Liam, what", I heard Harry start. And then I felt him next to me, "What the fuck, holy shit. What happened", he yelled looking at the blood. He looked at me and then glanced down, and he froze and tears poured down his cheeks, "What did you do to her", he yelled. I got angry, "I didn't do a damn thing, I came in here and saw here, and blood. I can't lose her Harry, I can't", I whispered. He reached over and touched her cheek. "Wait, no she's not...", he started. Then I heard Louis and Nialls voice, "Lads where are you, and where the hell is Ari", Louis asked. I know she's fine, everything will be ok. "What the hell happened in here, and... oh my god, Ariana", Louis yelled. He then screamed for Niall, and he soon followed. We were all now crying, all four of us sat there with a lifeless Ariana, "Liam, why would she do this"?, Niall asked. I just sat there still holding her, not willing to let her go.I didn't answer. Harry got up, "I can't do this, I need to get help. I don't want to be in here knowing that our Ariana could be... gone", Harry said in a sad tone. He walked out and I think woke up Zayn, and in an instant he came running in, "Ari", he whispered getting on his knees like Harry did. He stroked her face, and he fumed with anger, "Who ever caused this will fucking pay. I'm calling Paul", he screeched.

*the next day*

Ariana's POV

I remember Liam coming in to help me and him crying and telling me to stay with him. I tried my best to keep my eyes open. Then I blacked out. I don't remember anything else after, I had just woken up and I was in a bed. I don't remember getting in bed, so I propped myself up and I groaned. I lpoked at my wrist, it was covered in gauze. I kept back tear, I remember now. I tried killing myself. It was so painful to think about. I quietly got out of bed and I went to what I think was a bathroom. I scrunched my brows and went in. I looked like a mess, I washed my face and went back to the room. Where am I, and who's room am I in?? I looked at the bed, clothes? I picked up the navy blue skirt and the long sleeve black crop top. I shook my head and stripped down and put them on and I had socks on. I had my hair down and I ran my hands through it and parted it. I smelt myself too, I actually smelt ok. I carefully found my way out, and I stopped in an unfamiliar hall. Wait, we were on our way to California. So I guess I fell asleep and they carried me to the place we're staying. I finally got to the front room and my eyes got wide and I ran and I jumped into the persons arms, they grabbed me and spun me around and held me tight. I cried into their chest, "I missed you babe", I felt him breath against my neck. I looked up amd he wiped my cheeks. "I missed you too Luke", I whispered. He lifted me off the floor and held me, I jumped up and wrapped my legs around his waist. And I put my arms around his waist. He held me close and I looked up at him and showered his face with kisses and he laughed and kissed me on the lips. It felt amazing to be in his embrace again. He put on hand on the side of my face and kissed me so passionately. He then broke away and kissed me all over my face too. He then kissed down my neck and I kept in a moan. I lightly thrusted.against him and he grunted. He held my face with one hand, "You don't know how hard it's been without you babe, I love you so god damn much. I didn't eat for a week, I was too busy missing you", he breathed. I giggled and crashed my lips on his, this time we kind of made out. Like with tongue, and our breathing became heavy. But I love this boy so much and I never wanted to let go. "Damn, we just got here and you guys are already at it", I heard another familiar voice say. I broke away from Like and turned my head around and I squealed, I jumped down and ran into Michaels arms. "Mikey, I missed you, how's life", I said excited. He laughed and hugged me tight in his bear hug, oh how I missed this. "Life's good, I really missed you a lot, because you're our Aripoo", he said petting my head. We stopped hugging and Ashton ran down the hallway. "Miss me love", he said. I ran to him and hugged him. "How's my Ari doing, it's been a while", he joked. I hugged him close. "I'm a wreck, but it's been long. What , 6 months", I laughed. I pulled away. I looked around, "Where's Calum"?, I asked. I felt someone crush me into a hug from behind, "Right here boo, and I missed you. It felt weird without you there", he said and pouted. I laughed at him, "Well, same goes for me. I felt out of place", I started. I turned around and all four of my boys were standing together, "I'm just soo happy to have my boys back, you guys changed. But we will always be best friends", I giggled. And we did group hug. We all pulled away, and the other lads were standing behind me. "So, how long have you guys known Ariana", Zayn asked. "Hmm, almost 2 years", Luke said. Liam stepped forward and put his arm on my shoulder, and Luke got mad. He carefully pulled me to him and put his arm around me protectively. Holy shit, this is going to be a long 2 weeks....