ink • soonhoon (completed)

• twelve •

after the incident wonwoo relocated jihoon and soonyoung to a separate location, seungkwan coming with them as well, as the others stayed to torment seungcheol. jihoon found himself avoiding soonyoung, every time he saw a cut or bruise on soonyoung he felt as if he was about to crumble. he felt like a monster for dragging soonyoung into this and causing him to lose his friend. it made soonyoung's heart ache to see jihoon obviously avoiding him and even ignoring him in certain instances, had he done something wrong?

seungkwan, who had been observing the whole situation, felt horrible for the two idiots. soonyoung had vented to him several times while he had treated his wounds or checked up on him and while seungkwan reassured him that he had done nothing wrong there was only a certain extent as to how effective his words were. soonyoung needed to hear from jihoon that he hadn't done anything wrong before the constant worrying and stress started to take a toll on his body.

jihoon sat on the couch with a book in his hand as he read, he had let his guard down for a minute as he sat there comfortably without soonyoung around. soonyoung walked towards the are when he spotted jihoon and stopped before he was in his line of sight and wondered if he should approach him. soonyoung took a deep breath and walked to the couch quietly and sat down next to him. jihoon, not noticing soonyoung, flipped to the next page. soonyoung bit down on his lower lip as he wondered if he should say something, he was sure touching him wasn't the right idea.

"hey," soonyoung said and jihoon flinched as he turned to him shocked at himself for not noticing the boy's presence.

"h-how long have you been there?" jihoon asked and soonyoung sighed, he didn't even get a greeting.

"just a minute or two,"

"what do you need?" jihoon said coldly and soonyoung grinned mentally, there was his usual cold self.

"why are you avoiding me?" soonyoung asked and jihoon looked to him with a dumbfounded look, how did he not know?

"because i dragged you into this mess. i caused the death of your f-friend. i'm the r-reason you're h-hurt.. i'm a m-monster." jihoon said and he knew he began to crumble as tears began flowing. soonyoung let out a small gasp as he was shocked to see this side of jihoon.

"jihoon, none of this is your fault." soonyoung said and jihoon just looked to him with the most heartbreaking expression. tears ran down his face as his eyes screamed for agony and his breath trembled with his small shoulders, soonyoung wanted to wrap him in the warmest hug to get rid of all of his pain.

"can i hug you?" soonyoung asked, jihoon desperately wanted to be in his arms but he was afraid of getting hurt or used yet when he looked into his eyes instead of the cold look he had seen so many times before there was a warm one in its place. jihoon reluctantly nodded and soonyoung pulled him into a gentle hug.

soonyoung felt the boy embrace him back as he held onto soonyoung's shirt and sobbed into his chest. soonyoung rubbed circles on his back as he desperately tried to take away jihoon's pain, seeing him like this made soonyoung's heart ache. soonyoung wasn't sure why he cared for jihoon so much or why he found his heart aching for the boy but all he knew was that he wanted to see jihoon smile. he wanted to know what a smile would look like on him and deep down he longed to cause the smile that would be on jihoon's face.

"it's okay.. it's gonna be okay.." soonyoung said softly and jihoon's sobs slowed into gentle breaths, his tears dried or absorbed into soonyoung's shirt, and all that was left was warmth. jihoon felt so warm in soonyoung's arms.

"do you want me to let go now?" soonyoung asked as he tried to not make jihoon uncomfortable yet to his surprise jihoon shook his head.

"just a bit longer.. please.." jihoon pleaded and soonyoung smiled, he would never let go of him.

"i won't let go," soonyoung replied and jihoon let out a sigh of relief.

jihoon felt his eyes get heavy as he snuggled into soonyoung's chest, he was nearly in his lap at this point. soonyoung grinned and continued to rub circles on his back as the boy shifted into a more comfortable. soonyoung watched as the boy breathed small breaths and felt his grip on soonyoung's shirt loosen as he slipped into slumber. soonyoung noticed after a few more minutes that jihoon was fast asleep, the crying and stress must've tired him out.

soonyoung laid back, taking the boy with him, and held him in his arms. he gently stroked the sleeping boy's hair as he watched him stir in his sleep but he fell back sleep quickly. soonyoung never wanted to let go of jihoon, he wanted to keep him safe even though he wasn't really capable of doing so. he knew he was royally fucked for messing with the yakuza but he slightly yearned to be back in his normal life and hoped jihoon to be a part of it.

even though he was aware that jihoon would never agree to work in a cafe with him he still dreamed of waking up in the morning with him and having a cup of coffee with him. soonyoung hoped to open up and close with him and teach him all of the pastry tips. he longed to watch jihoon come out of his shell and talk to customers with a grin. as soonyoung thought of these things he realized that he didn't just want to be around jihoon he wanted to spend all of his time with him. he wanted to hold him in his arms and make it all better, he wanted to press gentle kisses to his forehead.

soonyoung mentally cursed himself as he realized that he had fallen for him.

• author's notes •

hiii i hope you enjoyed this chap!

the reason for this a/n is that i need your help!! im in the process of making my next book and with that comes deciding on concepts and ships and so on but rn i need help with what ship to do!! so if you dont mind .. pls comment which ship you would like to see <3

-lilly