ink • soonhoon (completed)

• eighteen •

"are you sure you want to live with me?" jihoon asked as he glanced to soonyoung. soonyoung chuckled and placed a hand on jihoon's cheek, he knew even though jihoon wanted to live together the boy couldn't help but need the reassurance.

"of course i do, i want to spend every morning, evening, and night with you.. and it's a little late to go back now," soonyoung said as he smiled to jihoon. jihoon's cheeks flushed a light pink and he nodded.

soonyoung pressed in the code to their new apartment and opened the door. jihoon stepped in first and kicked his shoes off. a few days after jihoon's anxiety had calmed down wonwoo took them apartment shopping. it didn't take long as by the second apartment jihoon had fallen in love. the balcony overlooked the city, you could even see the cafe, and was a wonderful spot to grow some plants. the kitchen looked out onto the living room and even though the space was rather small it seemed wonderful. the thought of being able to talk to each other from the two rooms seemed nice. the main bedroom was a normal size for two people but had a bigger closet, which they didn't need but would use nontheless. there was a bathroom attached to the main bedroom as well which was nice. the true selling point for jihoon was the extra bedroom that had big windows, it was perfect for a studio.

the apartment was expensive and no matter how much jihoon said he didn't like it that much wonwoo could read him like a book. after hours of arguing about it wonwoo had mingyu sign the lease behind jihoon's back. jihoon was mad and swore to pay them back one day but wonwoo just chuckled and left without saying anything.

the couple found themselves standing in their new home. the movers had already brought in boxes and placed them in the according rooms which left unpacking and decorating the only thing left. jihoon was excited to be living with his lover in this apartment but it didn't feel like home yet. soonyoung approached jihoon from behind and hugged his waist. jihoon smiled as he enjoyed the warmth and comfort that soonyoung gave him.

"let's make this place home, hm?" soonyoung suggested and jihoon nodded.

the two began unpacking and while doing so they realized that there wasn't much to put around the home. both of them didn't have any sentimental items to make the house feel like home. jihoon sighed as he plopped onto the couch, nothing could be simple. soonyoung glanced over as he heard the boy fall onto the couch. he slid a dish into the cabinet before walking over to the sulking boy.

"what's the matter lovely?" soonyoung asked as he sat onto the couch next to jihoon. jihoon leaned over and placed his head on soonyoung's chest, soonyoung responded by placing his hand on the boy's small waist.

"are we moving too fast? just.. we have no photos.. no memories.. no dates-"

"no memories? jihoon my mind is full of memories of you. your small breaths on my chest in the morning, how soft you are when you're half asleep, the way you stick out the tip of your tongue when you're focusing on a drawing, the way you furrow your brows while reading.. you're constantly running around in my mind. sure we don't have physical evidence of our memories yet but we have so many more memories left to make, we'll just have to make sure we capture those." soonyoung said and jihoon didn't know why but he felt like crying.

he hadn't ever felt love like this. jihoon had never felt the genuine concern and adoration another person could give him. he hated that he couldn't always believe what soonyoung told him as he had only been lied to before. having someone genuinely care for you was another type of love. it warmed your heart at any minute and there was nothing like that.

"i love you jihoon, don't ever forget it." soonyoung said before pressing a kiss to jihoon's forehead.

"i-i love you t-too.." jihoon said softly and soonyoung smiled. jihoon wanted to be held by soonyoung, he wanted to press his lips to soonyoung's. he wanted to feel his lover's touch.

"k-kiss me," jihoon pleaded and soonyoung's face got red as he was taken aback by jihoon's directness.

"wha-"

"h-here.. kiss m-me here.." jihoon said as he placed a finger on his lips. soonyoung's face remained red as he nodded and pressed a kiss onto jihoon's lips.

jihoon straddled soonyoung's lap and soonyoung held his waist. jihoon pressed into the kiss and soonyoung mentally panicked, jihoon had never been this direct before. jihoon pulled out of the kiss and huffed as he caught his breath. soonyoung hated to admit but he loved seeing jihoon this way.

"j-jihoon, let's go to bed.. it's late and we have to get up early tomorrow an-"

jihoon pressed another kiss onto soonyoung's lips but slipped his tongue in this time. soonyoung fell back onto the couch as his hands rested on jihoon's waist. soonyoung was enjoying this but something felt off, it felt rushed. soonyoung broke the kiss this time and looked to jihoon's eyes. he looked miserable.

"jihoon? baby? what's wrong?" soonyoung asked and jihoon shook his head. soonyoung just gave him a look and jihoon sighed.

"d-do you n-not wa-want me?" jihoon asked before biting down onto his lower lip. it wasn't a seductive bite but more to hide a quivering lip.

"o-of course i-i do! but j-jihoon i don't want to rush this.. i want to t-treat you right.." soonyoung said and jihoon exhaled as he plopped onto soonyoung's chest. soonyoung glanced to the boy and gently stroked his hair.

"let's go to bed, hm? i want to hold my lover,"

• author's notes •

blegh i hate this chap :(( it was good in the beginning and then it all went downhill fast

-lilly