Internally Broken. ( 5SOS fanfic)

Chapter 11

We've been on the road for about an hour now. The boys don't have a show until tomorrow, and I'm not sure when my first one will be.

Im not sure where in the bus everyone is at, but I'm sitting in my bed under the covers with my head phones on. I'm listening to Wrapped Around Your Finger and I can't help but compare this to me with Riley.

He had me under his spell and for what, so id be easy to beat and have sex with all under the pretenses of love? I can't believe how stupid I actually was.. And still am because no matter how much I hate him.. Some feelings are still there.

Note to self: don't have a panic attack on a traveling tour bus because you can't step outside for air.

All of a sudden I'm crying and I can't control my breathing. I get out of bed and start pacing. I lean my hands and forehead against the wall.

That's when I feel hands wrap around me. It's Michael. I turn in to hug him and finally calm down. I look up at him and it looks like he's been crying too.

I lead him over to my bunk and we both sit down.

"What's wrong?" I quietly ask, considering I was still trying to calm down myself.

"My girlfriend, well now ex girlfriend was cheating on me back in Australia.. Her names Jess and when I found out I called her and she tried saving herself saying it was because she was drunk and missed me but then I found out it's been happening since before I left.." Michael said, his voice cracking at the end because he was crying again.

"I really thought I loved her ya know? And I feel so stupid and helpless because I should have seen this coming.. None of the boys liked her.. They were civil but I could tell.. Everyone thought she was a complete bitch.. I guess they were right.."

It kind of shocked me how similarly Michael and I were feeling right now. Both of us felt confused, hopeless, stupid, and completely lost.

"Michael, I know exactly how you feel. I feel the exact same way right now.. I feel utterly stupid because I still have feelings for Riley even after what happened today, and I feel lost because he was all I knew. But if it's one thing I know for sure right now, is that we'll get through this together." I smiled at him.

He leaned over and hugged me and whispered:

"thanks beautiful. You're like the little sister I've always wanted."

As I responded:

"And you're like the older brother I've never wanted but am happy to have"

He chuckled and kissed my forehead.

At the same moment Luke came in saying:

"Hey Noel I have something to ask... Oh sorry I'll leave you guys alone then." And he spun on his heels and slammed the door.

Michael groaned and fell back on my bed.

"What was that about?" I asked utterly bewildered.

"Are you serious Noel? Man you really are oblivious. Luke has had a small crush on you since you met accidentally backstage, And this is the second time he's caught us acting like this." Michael stated matter-of-factly.

The the realization hit me. "He thinks we like each other?!" I asked incredulously.

"Well if I were him I would." Said Michael.

"I have to go talk to him now don't I?" I asked hesitantly.

"Yeah you should. You can tell him why I came in here if you want. I was gonna tell the boys anyway. I just felt like talking to you first." He sadly smiled at me.