Chasing Stars (Tendou Satori X reader)

2. Just like shattering glass

Trigger Warning: Toxic Relationship
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I stare a the two who haven't seemed to notice me looking quite yet. My vision becomes a tunnel and every other sense I had feels gone.
I mean I did just witness the person who I thought loved me kiss another girl. I quickly shake my head breaking out of the trance I was in. As soon I get brought back I feel the tears streaming down my cheeks. Fuck. I look around, and that's when I notice the other students looking at me and whispering
'Poor girl,'
'I was hoping she wouldn't find out,'
'She seemed so nice,'
So everyone else knew he was cheating?

"Y/n!" I look towards the direction of the yelling. There I see Tendou and Semi walking together. I try to smile at the two but my head feels like it's spinning.

I look back towards Luke and Shelby who obviously have noticed me standing here. Luke seems to say something Shelby before making a b-line straight towards me. I want to move but can't, so the next best thing I do is avert my attention back to Semi and Tendou who are standing there watching me.

"Y/n.." I hear a soft whisper from in front of me. I turn back and see Luke standing there, looking miserable.

"Why?" I ask. I want to run away, but I still can't move so I do the next best option and start questioning him. "Is that why you couldn't hang out over the weekend? Why you've been so distant? When you blame everything on stress is it really that or is it because you really just don't want to be with me anymore?" Each question seems to sting him more, but of course he doesn't show it.
"You're an idiot," He says it out loud. Plain and clear for everyone to hear, "You know, I'm kind of happy you found out. I really didn't want to keep dating a bitch like you, but guess what. I did."

These words hit me harder than anything in my entire life. I feel the weight of the world start piling on top of me, making it hard to breathe.

"You know y/n, you were fun in the beginning. Before you joined the volleyball idiots, that's when you became boring. Honestly I wanted to dump you as soon as you became their manager, but Shelby talked me out of it," He smiles and flicks my forehead, "Let me say this for you loud and clear, in front of everyone. You. Are. Unlovable. A useless girl who doesn't care about a thing besides herself. We're over y/n." 

He turns back around walking to Shelby.I stand there, now not sure of anything. All I know is that I'm in more pain right now than I have ever been in my entire life. Everything he said keeps running through my mind. The spite in his voice. The disgust in his eyes. The way he said every word with a hatred towards me.
I suddenly turn around and run away. I'm not even controlling myself at this point, but I don't care right now. I just needed to escape there. That's when I remember Tendou and Semi watched that.
I reach the bathroom and close myself into a stall. I then collapse to the floor crying.

"I- I thought.." I whisper it out in sobs, "I thought... we were perfect together...."

I start crying even harder at those last words. Of course I thought we were perfect, he acted like he cared. He pretended to love me. He played me. For what though? To humiliate me in front of the school? My friends? The team? Well it worked. He's won, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. I feel like a failure, a loser. That's when I hear the bathroom door open and a voice call out.

"Y/n?" It's soft and gentle, "I know you're in here, I followed you here. Please say something." I recognize it as my friend Yuri. "Please, everyone is worried."

"Why... why would they be-," I try to keep talking but instead I start sobbing even harder then before. I hear a knock on the stall door. "I- I'm... so.. sorry.." I mutter out. I know it won't mean anything to Yuri, and that I shouldn't even be saying sorry but I just felt the need to.
"Please don't apologize, it's not your fault. Luke is just an asshole," I hear her trying to open the door. I quickly stand up and unlock the door.
"I guess I learned the the hard way," I smile at her, still devastated but just trying to seem positive for her.

"Y/n, let's go to class, please. Then at lunch we can talk,"

"Okay," I smile once more, trying to wipe the tears out of my eyes. Thankfully I was at school early this morning or else I would've been late.

---Time Skip---

During lunch I'm sitting with Yuri and the team. I keep my head on the table as whispers can be heard around the lunch room. By now everyone has heard of what happened, and it seems everyone is at a divide of who to support. Some feel for Luke while others pity me. That's not even the end of it though, apparently during class Luke was talking about how we was now dating Shelby.

"Y/n, you can't sulk forever, I mean if you do then we might not have an awesome team manager anymore," I hear Tendou hum. 

I smile at the table opening my eyes. "Tendou don't say that!" Yuri mutters. I lift my head, visibly upset but still smiling.
"He's not wrong Yuri, how would I ever be able to manage the team if I was moping around all the time?" I smile at her, hiding the fact that I just want to break down.

She smiles back, and I see a look of something in her eyes. Pity? Sadness? I can't even tell, but I know it's not good. "I know but," she sighs reaching over the table to grab my hands, "I just want to know if you'll be okay. I need to know you will be,"
"I'll be fine, it'll just take a little," Externally I force myself to seem like the brightest person at the table, while internally I'm wishing I never even agreed to date Luke.

I prop my head on my hands and close my eyes. The events of the morning keep running through my mind, the yelling. The feeling of betrayal I've felt all day. The loneliness that is now filling my head.
"Y/n?" I hear Semi say.
Opening my eyes I glance towards him, "Yes?"
"You know, you don't have to come to practice today it just wouldn't feel right if you weren't 100%,"

I know it won't, but I can't be home either. I can't be alone just yet. I'm scared what will happen if I'm left with my thoughts.

"It'll be fine, plus I think it'll be better if I'm with people a little longer today," I mumble out.

Of course it'll be better, but also worse. I have to keep hiding the pain then, I have to keep being strong for the team. I can't break, not yet. Not until I'm alone.

That's when the weight of the world falling down on me will hit me the hardest.

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Author's Note: I honestly hated Luke the second I wrote him into this story, and so I decided to get rid of him as soon as I could, but with s a d n e s s~. Anyways, I'm honestly scared to keep writing cause I don't like angst but it must be written for this story. Thank you to anyone and everyone who reads this. I hope you all are having a good morning/ day/ evening/ night. I hope you enjoy the story :)
And yes, I'll be writing this until I see the sunrise. Why? I don't even know.

Word Count: 1328

Edited? Yes.